I really need to get out more or this emotion I have for him will just slowly poison me.
He isn't in a healthy place right now and their isn't much more I can do from my end.
It's not the easiest thing in the world to watch someone about to crash and not being able to to a damn thing about it. I can imagine all the pain he is in but being a silent observer isn't pain free either.
But what else can I do? Just watch him and have the feeling in the pit of my stomach he's dying as it is?
So yeah, I need to get outside more and stop living through the computer. Kinda feels like its a goodbye post in a way. I need to be in a healthy place too.
Im just so useless lately, I mean really? what good am I to him anyway?
 Jayce Reinhardt · Sun Sep 28, 2008 @ 04:57am · 0 Comments |
