“The Humiliation of Revealing the Unknown”
Today… was the day I finally had the chance to reveal the anonymous person I have feelings upon. Well to truthful, today was actually my very first time in years to express my affection about any guy. Over all my thoughts, I mostly wondered how my friends would react to such an unexpecting confession. Surprised? Delighted? Unconvinced? Well, let me you how everything went…
Around first period, all I could do was concentrate on how did this feeling actually came to be. “Who? How? When did this happen?” were basically the words my heart was beating hastily inside my chest.
I don’t know, I thought to myself. I was quite stunned myself how my feelings expanded for my friend. As my cheeks heated, I instantly dismissed the thought and rose from my homeroom desk. While heading for 2nd period, all I noticed was his and my name scribbled around the edges with tiny and oversize hearts on my previous geography class assignments. That’s when I figured I seriously need to tell someone about my sudden obsession before it all got out of hand…
Settling my heavy books down precisely, I quietly sat down in my black, uncomfortable seat. For a short period of time, I was constantly in a position to avoid the person I least wanted to see at the moment. I could feel the questioning stare from my friends, Jasami and Akira, across the rows. They knew something was erroneous because they glanced back and forth until Akira finally came up to me. ‘What’s wrong?’ she whispered, looking at me with concern. I let out a counterfeit smile, assuring her I was fine and I would discuss the matter later…In the noisy lunchroom, I decided to sit on the small bench closest to the exiting doors. Jasami slowly took her sit directly across from me, as for Akira enthusiastically took her owns. ‘So what’s going on with you today?’ was all my ears heard, before my tongue literally rip away with words. Oh goodness…if only I had bitten it a second earlier.
The usual ‘Wow!’ and ‘Are you serious?’ were instantly replied, but all I could see was smiles creeping on their faces. The record of 6 years of being a hopeless romance was soon to be an end. Clearly the news was so extraordinary to them, since it lighten up the whole dreary atmosphere that was suffocating us. I looked around shyly, trying to calm the embarrassing moment, yet whoever was within hearing range heard as well and asked questions. All I did was whine in my conscious, scolding myself for confessing in the…lunchroom! How great was it to have more frustration on my shoulders than before? I couldn’t certainly agree it’s great like delicious Hershey’s chocolate, if I could say so myself. Words were whispered and spoken around the crowded tables, and basically the only thing I could do was to rest my aching forehead lazily on top of my crossed arms. I should’ve just stayed silent I repeated mentally to myself over and over again.
I continued to repeat it to myself, until I overheard the name that makes my heart soar. I completely stiffen, and I just wanted to get away from all this attention. Getting up from my seat and gathering all my belongs, I rushed out the exiting doors without any second thoughts. Behind me, I could hear Jasami and Akira bellowing for me to come back. I couldn’t hear most of it since it faded away; I was just running swiftly to somewhere else. Yeah, I would get in trouble by a nearby teacher, but the emotions flaring in me were blazing my actions. Words and Quotes were floating though my mind constantly; I basically couldn’t think straight. The main words rushed to me were: Confession, Love, Gossip, and…Humiliation. Yes, those simple words knew exactly what I was going through. Some reason, they just seem to do so…
 The Marvelous Artist · Sat Sep 27, 2008 @ 10:13pm · 3 Comments |
