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A smile can consume someone, but can it cure anything? I really don't think so. Many times it can hurt someone, depending who gives it to the one person. Sometimes isolation can help, but it can lead to hate, which can be trouble, but its no where near a troubled soul. Many times I sit writing in my journal or my book and I realize a human can suffer from so many emotions, but what can one do?
Nothing, and I learned that the hard way. It never fails, but I think I'm finally learning to understand. Emotions are a form of trouble. Emotions can let you lose people you care about. You learn to deal with it. But it doesn't always seem right to have to deal with.
Now many ask me, where do i get these weird things to say, or why I even say it. But the truth be where can I get rid of it. That's a question that will always be on my mind. But I hoep that's just life. Key word Hope.
But there never is hope. Its just a word to make people believe better things are to come and that they should look for better. But what about us where bettr never comes? Huh? I mean there are those of us who cry every night, no matter waht. Whether they have a girl/boyfriend, a good friend, or family. Sometimes we are alone and those who learna nd know it for what it is, realize that no one can really fall in love. No one can really figure it out, unless you can see past the reflection others before us have put before our eyes. Its time we break the mirror and see the real world.
The Real world isn't smiles, and love, but pains and hates. No one can truely be happy. They say love can heal and that time helps heal. Its false. I know that one too well. But this isn't about me. This is about life and the world around it.
Dont' you see? People die everyday by other human being hands? You want to know why? People are sick. SOmetimes it is just what they see fit to do to those around them. But sometimes it is anger, pain, or hatred that fuels the murders. Suicides? That's usually pain and sorrow. Suicide at times seems to be the only answer, but it isn't sometimes. And you can't always finish the job. Soemtimes you are caught, or it doesn't work. But when it goes through, the pain is no longer there, the sorrow isn't with you. It is the answer. But there is a down side to that.
Suicide hurts those around you. It can lead to other suicides. And sometimes that can only help the others. It helps them realize that life isn't all fun and games, that hidden deep beneath the skin of a being, that pain resides and lives in peace. We always fight it. We don't want to feel it. But there are those of us who embrace it, who love it and feeds it.
Pain is just life. You learn slowly that pain is helpful and helps us see the real things in life. When we are torn apart and thrown aside, we realize that other humans aren't what can fill the void. Many believe when you think you have fopund love, then you'll be happy and the void filled. Not true. Its quite false. Sometimes its love that drives one into insanity. There again, pain comes into view.
the void will never be filled. It may become unrecognizable, but it will always be there. No one can fill it. Only you can, but no one sees that these days. No one wants to believe they only need themselves. Today its all about Love. But isn't it love that kills people emotionally and sometimes physically? But no one understands or sees that. Nor will they, for they don't want to.
I can only hope people learn that everything around them hurts in the end.
Sometimes I wonder why I live, and other times, I know why. But like the few of us out there, I know the truth and I accept it. I know I'll always be on my own. And I know I'll always be hurt and weak. But I'll act strong and normal, like the ones who don't even know the deeper things in life.
I can only wish you luck. SO good day to you, and my this read bring thoughts to your mind. May you realize life and its many gifts.