I came Home from what was a great camping trip to find, my precious puppy,
(A 11 year old Yellow lab)
to be very very sick and in a horrible amount of pain...
he hasn't really eaten anything in 2 days, he has been having bathroom trouble..
my poor puppy.
tomorrow they've made an apointment to put him down and I'll be going
I'll be staying up all night with him, and i'll be there the next morning.
I feel like some one ripped out my heart and is laughing as it stops beating...
there is nothing I love more than my animals and my puppy has been there threw my worse moments.
I hate Life....
I live soully for the purpose of not causing loved ones more pain.
Those it seems I am the one who is caused pain because of my consern.
I will be in the room as my puppy's life comes to a close,
I'm miserable right now.
nothing really matters.
I"m just trying not to cry so that he won't feel upset...
I'm online to try and distract myself for what tomorrow will bring.
I don't know how I'll wake up and stand to not see him and his wagging tail or tell him not to crush my foot with his massive paw....
Tomorrow afternoon will be the very first time He won't be there when I get home.
That thought breaks my heart....
I don't know what' I'll do....
right now all I can do is cry. crying
 Lex-Laramire · Thu Aug 25, 2005 @ 01:58am · 1 Comments |
