GAH!
*gnaws myself to death* WHY NOW
DEVON, of all people, stopped by totaly unexpected just about 10 minutes ago. He whom i haven't really talked to sense the beggining of summer. And, why, i beg to know, is it when ever i talk to him do my legs tend to want to give out from under me, even though i've agreed to give up on him! GAH! I still haven't regain proper feeling in them.
And, Why, only days after i posted i was with Robert in my Livejournal, does he show. and durring the time i am with him! i haven't had a real bf for so long, and i waited for him. I gave up on him, hearing he wasn't interesting in dating. But now he talks about getting on with his life in both skill and love. Looking for it. Wanting to make something real with his life. and here i sit, staring at the screen where his rant is, petrifyed.
I thought it'll never happen.
Why is it i can't force myself to belive that anymore.
Or the fact that i'm want something may happen.
I mean, i've only liked him sense grade 8...
And now that i'm stuck with robert, whom hasn't contacted me for almost 2 weeks, he shows up for the first time unexpected at my door. Invites me to come over sometime, says he will call.
And looks cuter then ever.
Ironic. Isn't it?
 playwithfire · Sat Aug 20, 2005 @ 11:21pm · 0 Comments |
