Starring out the window
into the dark outside , coldness of January
Going through this awful pain from day to day.
Take a razor to my
wrist as I see these
flashbacks of things that happened.
These dreams I can
Feel them
Sense them
almost become them
The boy that always
ignored me and labeled me
as nothing in the world.
He is now the boy of my
dreams, stopping me from
doing all these awful things
to my pale skin.
He admits to being in
love with me and touches
me like I ave never been
before. His long fingers
leaving a stinging feeling
as they slide up my sides.
Staring up at the sky
wondering what is going on.
Up against a cold fence now.
That feeling of hate
and nothingness disappearing
as he peels off my clothing one by one.
Death
Hate
Darkness
isolation
no emotion
All these things
that describe me
What is happening to me?
Screaming in pain with
my long pale fingers
wrapped around the
barbed,cold wire fence
Penetration
Pleasure
Pain
As my bare body
is being almost forced
against the fence,the
pain of the wire digging
into my back and then
the deep penetration of
him deep in me.
My mind so full of
this s**t being drowned
out by my screaming
Hours later im left
there on my knees
drowning in my tears
and my mixed thoughts
Penetration
Death
Pleasure
Darkness
no Emotion
Pain
Isolation
Darkness
He left me in my
own darkness and
scarred me inside and out.
For the first time
I feel emotion
This is no
dream anymore
Looking up at
the sky to get things
in order
Take a razor to my
wrist and feel the pain
of it sinking in and scarring
me...
Razor to my pale skin?
I'd ask for that pain anyday
baby...
 AliceXHatter · Mon Apr 14, 2008 @ 08:25pm · 1 Comments |
