it's me....the one that's supposed to be evil but has been changed to the other side without her knowing of it >_< .
right now I'm feeling more like my old self than ever,infact,all I want to do right now is destroy,burn,and do anything and everything that will cause anyone pain......I hate the world and I wish for the vermins to die a slow and painfull death,why you ask? because they desserve it.
yes,I have bloodlust right now and yes,I do want to see people screaming in agony and asking for mercy but I can't do that right now....I can't go out and be myself.
not unless I get rid of this three pains that live with me;I want to.....but this is were the real problem comes in......I want to kill all three of them....have they're blood spilled on the floor but I don't at the same time.....I don't get it,I can't really explain this well.....I do but I don't,thats how it is with everything right now.....I don't understand myself anymore.....I know anli has felt this way more than once;the girl has guts.....I hate her.....I don't know,do I?everything is so complicated.....maybe....I should leave after this bet is over.....just long enought for me to understand things......
just long enought for people to forget about me?
 yamiruri · Wed Aug 03, 2005 @ 08:03pm · 1 Comments |
