today I just know that it's going to be one of those long days....why?well I just found out that I have to go with my mom to the dentist (oh joy rolleyes ....shot me why don't ya?)....so I have to get ready for that soon.....I felt bad this morning for what happened yesterday so I decided to have breakfast...thats not something that I like to do often but...whatever,I don't care about anything at this moment......I have to go and get ready now.....I hope that I come back before five.
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we have to leave in a couple of hours and I'm so sleepy right now....I'm not really a morning person and I know that being stuck in a boring office thats ice cold will only add to the joy of being woken up early.....I'm so tire *yawn*.....I can't believe that my friend cares more about me than my own parents....thats odd....I thought that it was the other way around but I guess that its just a theory or guideline and not an actual rule.....it feels weird 'cause I'm not used to people caring for me....I mean....I'm really more used to caring for others but not having the feeling returned.....it feels weird but in a good way *yawn*......I forgot what I was gonna say just now....oh yeah,I remember......opening up to a person is harder than I thought......mainly 'cause I don't talk to anyone much and no one usually asks me what I'm thinking or feeling.....it's new....it's weird......but it doesn't feel bad....just weird....I guess I need to get used to it *yawn*......I'll eventually get used to it.
oh and great news....theres a ghost in this house ^_^ (no joke *smirk I blame myself for that)
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and I'm back from the deepest pits of h*** (also known as being stuck with your mother for a longer period of time then what you actually want to spend with her or your brother's supposed child)....yes,I survived...verily....the women started asking when I'll get a bf....me:what for?! her: so you can go out and have fun
me (inside my head...I know the price for speaking my mind so I don't do it anymore):and here I thought you could go out and have fun with 1)your friends or 2)yourself....thank you mother for showing me the way..NOT!!!!!
here's what I said in real life- wow mom,you make the reason for me to find a bf so convincing *smirk*....her:grrr (she was frustrated 'cause she thought that I was going to get mad again,lol whatever mom.....whatever,I know you wanna make my life h**l but I won't let you anymore)
I'm really mad right now.....it seems that every time me and her go out she always has to ask something dumb like that and if it isn't that then it's the "when are you going to find a boyfriend and get marry?" *sigh* yes...I love that question.....as if I need a man to validate my life.....because heaven forbid my life being worth anything without one....I could have a phd for all she knows but she still would think that I haven't done much wioth myself because I don't have a man *sigh*.....I just want to put some really depressing music and stay looked up in my room.
 yamiruri · Wed Jul 06, 2005 @ 02:50pm · 0 Comments |
