*sigh* I got the same feeling from last thrusday.....somethings wrong but I don't know what or who is suffering.....but theres something wrong.....I guess I'll explain whats going on in my life right now....it all started last thrusday,when I woke up I have had the last "part" of my dreams with that friend (or atleast it seemed to be that way) but I woke up with 1) a cut and 2) a killer headache that wouldn't leave for the entire day....did I mentioned that I had this feeling that something was going to happen?no....well I had it all day long and the worst part was that I was also in pain for most of the day.....you know,the usual stuff like coldness (I was thankfull for the fact that we were in the movies while that happened 'cause that way it was really easy for me to hide how I was feeling).
by the time I went to the bathroom though,I was really weak and it took me a really long time to get back to my seat.
I keeped having the feeling of something being wrong all day long,that and what was going on inside my mind was enought to make me lose some control of what was going on and it maked something bad that I didn't want it to happen well it made it happen.
by the time I got to inside elly's car I was choking.....along with all the other feelings....something is happening right now and I don't know what but is bad and all I want to do is cry....it hurts.....just like last time and I'm hoping that it isn't that 'cause....it just wouldn't be fair....I can't do anything if it is that....I can't even help....I don't know....I mean....I know...I hope its not her.....it can't be...we broke ties, didn't we?
by the next day all I wanted to do was call in sick but I went to work anyways.....maria had to hold my hand so she could guide me....I couldn't see and by lunch time I had explained everything to her...even somethings that I think I forgot to mention to elly......she thinks I have a ghost following me or something like that....she thinks its that thats hurting me,we were supposed to go to this psychic today but as I'm sure I've mentioned already....I don't trust today 'cause I have that feeling....btw on thrusday I knew that someone was going to die (which is why I gave the bracelet to elly....to make sure we would meet again),I'm sure I've mentioned it all to elly but I feel like I've forgoten to mention something...I also got an indicent proposal from my sister's bf......among other things.
nothing much but that to say....'cept I woke up with a cut in my forehead,it isn't deep orlong but it's there and I didn't do it.....I'm not worry that anyone can see it 'cause I can cover it with make-up.....
it hasn't happened yet but I know that it's not good and I'm afraid of who it will take this time.........
 yamiruri · Sat Jul 02, 2005 @ 10:37pm · 1 Comments |
