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It's all your fault! you ruined my life! i blame you... you ruined my life, someone elses life, your life and maybe the person who lives down the street from you life. it's your fault, my fault, his or her's fault, everyone's fault that everyone's life is ruined or depressed. I blame you, myself, everyone for this. You had to reject the who loves you, You only wanted comfort from basicly one person, i had to get myself caught in the middle, everyone has to be uncaring to one person or more than just one person. i saw you walking after our exams where over. YOu seemed sad so i went to say hi. you responded and i asked how you where. you said not good i walked away after saying something. i heard a reply out of you but it wasn't something good. I ran up to you and asked you to repeat what you said. you said no, but i pryed it out of you. we began to talk, i soon stopped you from walking and told you you please. then to look me straight in the eyes and talk to me, we talked you hurt and i trying to comfort you. i wasn't much help. you will give me a letter. to give it to our friend but they where your love. If i didn't hear from you on a specific day to give the letter to the person the day after. For some reason i didn't panic but i knew i wanted to. i said okay but tried to convince you , you shouldn't leave this world and what you did so long ago has been forgiven. Maybe not by those you hurt but maybe they have. you leave and i run back to the people i was with. in my mind the insanity starts to boil. we talked again, i try to reassure you but barely did anything. i tryed not to burry my self deeper into the situation, but i do. i tell you that if you leave for good you'll be hurting the one person you never wanted to hurt. you blinded yourself from that. you hugged me, i hugged you. i didn't want to let go, i was afriad, but i let go anyways. there was nothing more i could do to help you. you said to me i was a good friend, but you didn't want me in any more than i was, you wanted to protect me and others from this. I respected what you wanted weither or not i wanted you to do this but i did. you then left to go home . i stayed at the school watching you leave, thinking things running through my mind. tears started to form but i held them in, i kicked the tree out of anger. A friend comes by and asks me is something wrong i say yes but i don't tell them what it is. they soon leave because they had to, i didn't care i wanted them to do so. my mom picks me up i look happy, we get home and i run upstairs. Paper and pencils as i write this all down, I talk to you later on msn, anger hurt on either side. i know i'm scared abgery, sad, but i dio not feel them. the things going threw my mind are why i'm here now... writing it down.
 Rikku42 · Sun Jun 19, 2005 @ 06:55am · 0 Comments |
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