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It's early I know, bu I can't sleep, so I thought, maybe if I got this off my chest, I'd feel a bit better. I miss him, and I can't sleep without thinking about him first,wondering what he's doing, I know he's only gone for a little, but it feels like years. And it kinda hurts. I want him with me,and I want him to be here for me when I cry, yes even I cry.
But thats because I care for him,I honestly do, I can't help it, my heart aches for him, just talking to him soothes me and makes me happy. I know, I used to be a really cold shell, and very care for myself and myself alone, but now, I know I can't do that, and it makes me happy. That I can show my emotions freely in front of him, and he doesn't judge me. He says it's okay for me to cry.
Becuase eveyone has emotions, and shouldn't bottle them up right? I hope your okay Justin, and I want you to return to me safe alright. If you don't , I'll be sad, and I'll cry for days, even though I may not be able to greet you as soon as you get home, I will eventually, I have summer school. So yea. I hope you can forgive me, if I do not.
I hope you dont mind me writeing this also, I just can't keep it inside on how I feel for you, I love you more then anything, and I know thats the truth. I'm glad we met, and even if it's over the net talking for now, we will eventually,and I'd wait a long time just for you, thats how much you mean to me, that and much more.
I think I piss off lauren, because I talk about you nonstop. Every little thing makes me think about you. And I'll never forget our phone calls. I know my mom dosen't ^_~ ,shes welcoming you here ,and I told her you may not be able to come down this summer, but maybe soon, who knows but feh, I'm just glad .Well I need my rest, and I bet half of this doesn't fit in place like a puzzle, but hey I can't write as well as I do when I'm alret, but I know how my heart beats and it beats for Your love and only yours alone.
As they say, you hold the key to my heart. I hope that you will cherish it. I love you! I'll pray for your safe return love.Later.
[Na no da] · Fri Jun 17, 2005 @ 10:37am · 1 Comments |
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