*sigh*....I'm way too tired for this.....I had another one of thoe dreams last night(joy of all joys rolleyes )and to make things worse,mom decided to freak me out again 3nodding yeah,just what I needed....as if I wasn't feeling sui-....umm....nevermind.....I hate those dreams.....I wake up even more tired then when I feel asleep....and the worst part is when I wake up....grr,the first hour after that is the worst.....makes me want to grab my knife and do something I'll regret latter.....but I didn't and haven't (so far atleast).
I'm gonna go to sleep now (eve though I woke up like 3 hours ago) and IF I wake up...then I'll come back to gaia....key word is if...ok...that just sounded wrong now that I think of it.....who cares.....ok,I'm off now.....'cause I'm tired and my eyes still burn from this morning's shopping(try shopping when you're in pain....not much fun)
there was way to much sunlight outside and for some reason today my eyes are like extra sensitive *sigh*.....third one this week....and she's never happy.....no matter were we go she's never happy *sigh*......I have to go and pay that thing and then I'm sleeping the day off,nite.
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I'm back,I must have sleeped only half an hour thanks to everyone *grabs gun and looks annoyed* if anyone else dares to come near me *evil smirk* yeah.....can't get the feeling off my head.....that feeling of...how can I explain this?it's weird 'cause it feels like your not yourself....not fully atleast....I know,it doesn't make sence....but I'm not here at the moment.....I...it feels like being controled,like your a puppet for someone else and you feel just as empty inside.......I thought I had gotten rid of this feeling but I haven't cry it doesn't matter.....I don't care anymore....I'm just using this so I won't have any regrets if something does happen.
 yamiruri · Thu Jun 16, 2005 @ 05:17pm · 1 Comments |
