I talked to grandma today. she said that she wished for me to be there....back in that place. I tried expplaining to her that I can't go back (aside from the reason that I would ...be...killed),I wouldn't be able to get used to that life,not again atleast. I think she got sad....'cause she knows I don't care about going back,'cause she knows that I'm different from my other family members. she'll get over it.....she wants me to be happy but I think she wants to relive the days when I wasn't so worried about things,I don't think anyone understands how different I am from them. the oldest still remembers and so does the other one....I don't.....I do,but the memories I hold....aren't.....something that anyone would want.....5 in total and they think that I could care *sigh*......they don't understand.
yamiruri · Thu Jun 09, 2005 @ 10:28pm · 0 Comments |