a friend let down on her birthday party...why? because I didn't hang with her and her school friends most of the night (about 15mins at the max it was), why? because I didn't feel comfortable around a group of people i didn't know....
what made it worse? the comparison of me to a friend who didn't know the school friends who was socialising and making an effort to fit in.....we are two different personalities
why didn't I make a move to be more social? i felt uncomfortable and just didn't feel right...the girls were younger than me...
what did i do instead? hung with my mother most of the night inside with the adults because i felt more comfortable.
do i regret it? yes...yes in the sense i wasn't there for my friend on her birthday..but then again no...because ive known my friend long enough so we both know what we are like in a social setting...
i truly hope i get to meet up with her next weekend to spend some quality time with her. just her and me...no big group of friends..will i get my wish? i hope so.
me and parties just do not mix...social settings in big lots are not my forte..
 Chesiry · Sun Sep 16, 2007 @ 11:07am · 1 Comments |
