ok, I'm really bored.. so I'm just gonna talk. Anyone ever hear of Jack Johnson? You should listen to his songs, Flake, Breakdown, upside down, and imagine. They're awesome songs. There's one he does with G. Love and special sauce, but I can't find it and I don't know what it's called. Ok, oldies.... how about Rockell? In a Dream is the coolest song ever. Being a twin kinda sucks... she's got a b/f now and he's 21.. err 22, we just turned 17. And now she's constantly picking fights with me! I don't liker her b/f and she knows that, but it's no reason to pick fights! You know out of all 73 of my real life friends onlyone is a best friend? it's strange because I used to have alot more than that... but than I went through a period in life where I thought I truly had no feelings. I still think I can't love, but my friend Alli has convinced me that I atleast care, that I can be happy and sad. That no matter what I may think, I do feel. Life is so confusing... why? Why does it have to be so hard anyway? Someone (you know who you are) told me that we have to suffer in order to become happy... isthat true, or just speculation? I don't see how suffering is going to make us happy, suffering has only ever made me depressed. My parents think I'm gonna turn suicidal or somehting, and don't worry, i'm just trying to get this off of my chest. I'm not gonna run off and kill myself. I'm not afraid to die, so if I'm going to die it's gonna be from a long life of suffering, not making myself and others suffer, so in the end if I think about it... suffering does make us happy... wow, that was an intense thought. If I stay around I can have happy times and others will be happy that I'm here. But if I died, I'd be regreting it everyday, and all those who were close would be wondering what went wrong and they would suffer for my stupidity. Thanks. (you know who you are) heart
KhrisZala · Sat Jun 30, 2007 @ 03:16am · 0 Comments |