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Best Friends or Complete Strangers? |
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My first best friend, Jeanine, we were inseperable. we met in pre-K, and did everything topgether, we always played with our barbies, and house. we played waitress lol, and pilots, on my swingset. her brothers were my brothers, and my brother was hers. i used to ask her all the time who her best friend was, and every time she said me , until 1st grade when she said "you and Michaela" my heart broke. after that we started drifting apart, meeting new people, and it's not like a fight broke us apart, but we just grew apart. the last time we hung out was in 5th grade, and it was soo awkward, cos we knew,subconsciously, that this was probably the last we'd hang out. Almost everynight before i went to bed I cried, thinking about the old times when we were best friends, ahving inside jokes, and hanging out with her family, and mine. After pre-K everyday, we either went to my house, or hers. at my house we would watch Little Bear, and have grilled cheese, at hers we had tuna, and watched Blues Clues. And i thought, that i basically was watching our friendship fallapart, and then i'd cry even more, because there was nothing i could do to fix it.(i'm crying now) Sometimes(twice), my friend Katie would invitte me over, Jeanine would be there, katie and her were really good friends, and hung out a lot, they would say inside jokes, and i would feel left out. I still see Jeanine, and Katie, and Michaela walking in the halls, laughing, and it hurts me so much to think, that maybe, if I did something, we would still be best friends. We don't even talk anymore, not even a hello, or a smile, nothing,like we were never friends.
You might think it's better to loose a friend by growing apart, it's not, cos i lost another really good friend because she ditched me, and my other best freind(we still are) Emily, for the "popular" girls, and then they ditched her, and then she tried coming back to me, but i shot her down. it was way harder, for me anyway, losing someone by taking different paths than fighting, cos sometimes, you don't really know that it's happening..........
 ElRitmoDeMiCorazon · Wed Jun 20, 2007 @ 12:41am · 1 Comments |
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