Twisted within lies and disguise. How friendship and love bond those ties. Funny how the world moves on without us knowing. Yet when we do relise we're left behind we're slapped down hard against the cold ground. But for everything beautiful as the rose, there is a death we must mourn for. But come the time and by it passes and the seed from the death passes through its stages to become another wonder. It'll continue, maybe spread if it doesnt get steped on by betrail and pain.
Poetic mood im sorry. But yes it has been fairly different times around me. My friends are closer then ever i must say, only earlier today did i get swormed in the hallway by others, my in the center. Wow did i ever feel so very great with the others actaly wanting to be and talk to me instead of someone i was following. They scattered quickly for we had to get to class but its a good, lingering feeling. My family have been fine... The fights between us have dulled down unbelivabley. Im very happy with that. I even thought i was over a long over lover of mine until i heard his voice speak again then it got very mixed again. It always happens you know? Strange times, it hurts a great deal to belive such things can or may be still true. But you'll never know what Ka has for you... Its like the wind. As for me? I dont know anymore... I think, as i said once before. I'll stick within my limits... Everything is so well yet so bad at the same time. My close friends parents are getting divorced... I feel strongly against a marage breaking. Very strongly so i always seem to end up getting tounge tied for words of sympathy. I feel bad about it, and i belive i have reason, I wanted to be there for them when they needed me, and now i think they do and i am at a loss. Bad fight between two other close people... Her speaking her mind and him getting in a fuss over it. We cannot all say we have never spoke bad for those that have done bad, or that we belive have done bad, have we not? We all do it, hate to admit it but we do. I've done it a great many times i hate to say... talked behind someones back at ones questions of my opion. My words harsh and roughless because they airnt there to hear, but they always do and hell breaks loose. Im making myself keep my tounge bit when speaking about others to not speak bad of them now. I can see what more damage it can do then i expected. Im going into tarot card reading most likely... Something to preoccupie my stray mind as well as reading Stephen King books. Perferabley 'The Dark Tower' Series. I recomend it as well as 'Firestarter' Once again Stephen King, To any readers. Just sunday i got my book, which from today was two days ago and i am already on the last chapter of the 700 page or so book. Very decent progress if i may say so myself... heh. Right now im layed back in silence.. Listening to the dark lyrics of my music and awaiting a word from thee who now holds me against myself for not speaking about words said in whispers and wondering about my dearest whom is upsetted how her own has resorted to ill causing, mind bending drugs. I think i have typed enough really... Good night and sweet dreams everyone.
 playwithfire · Wed Apr 13, 2005 @ 03:48am · 0 Comments |
