So I have decided to try and write a journal like a day to day thing if I can. I would like to see if this imporves my mental stability. I worked 9 hours today, running on about 2 hrs of sleep and wishing I had more. I just could not get to sleep and the dream I was having was very very weird. But I was all cuddled up close to my boyfriend then he moved and I woke up startled and I couldn't get back to sleep. At work people didn't show up and we had so much work to do... It was a mess in some areas. I work so much I don't know when my day begins and when my work starts. I have been experiencing many thoughts on having a child. But everyone is like wait, wait, wait... your too young don't rush this stuff... I just want things to happen when they happen I am tired of waiting for things to happen in my life. My eyes are drawing closed as my thoughts dwindle to the days ahead. Am I doing what is right for me or am I just doing what I am told to do. What is my thoughts and which are the thoughts of others just provocing me to do my daily tasks. My money is it actually mine or is it rather a figment of what is ment to be mine but that which I can never actually attain because it is meant for others and their well being. Thoughts bring life and death, thoughts rule more then actions.
purpledemon · Mon May 28, 2007 @ 04:19am · 0 Comments |