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Everyday, Every god forsaken day! everyday I hear how my friends are in pain, I hear about how their love is failing, how they hurt and yearn for the ones they love. I feel guilt and tirment that I can not make their pain go away. I cry at night with selfhatred. What kind of friend am I!?! I can not help them! I can not help me! That is a sin far greater then any other. How do I atone for their pain? Why can I not bear it as well? Why am I not stronger? WHY?!?! How can I laugh, how can I smile? Why!?! HOW?! My dearest friend is stoic beyond words. I love and respect him so much. More then I think he knows. When I hear of how his girlfriend treats him and of how he wants nothing more then to rescue her from where she is I weep! I can do nothing. NOTHING! I hate myself so much for my weakness. Why can't I help him. WHY?!?! Why can't I jelp anyone? I am useless. I can't help those I see in pain, my words are truely hollow. They mean nothing without the actions I long to put behind them. To draw my friends close in loving hugs. They deserve so much more then what I see. What do I do? Do I give in? Do i crawl away and die with the dishonor I brought myself with my weakness? Do I pull that knife across my wrist and end it all? No. I don't think they would like that at all. I will stand strong for Marius. I will stand strong for Miles. And for Mandy whom I have never met. I will try harder. Till my last breath I swear by the gods of old and the gods of new that I will try harder! Annal Combustion · Sat May 12, 2007 @ 02:34am · 1 Comments


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	You're takeing on too much all at once!! Think, if every human on this earth went to one person to get all there problems solved, then that one person wouldn't last but a moment in this world filled with pain. We all have pain, and lots of it. This world is a constant spinning ball of pain, hatred anger and much much more. You alone have your pains, and in taking on so much of the pains of other's, you may lose yourself. You're not useless, nor is anyone in this world, we all have our time to be here, we all have our own pains. We can't take on the pains of other's so much. If we do, it's a slow death to our self's. Problems work them selfs out over time, they require interaction between the problem, and the person who had or created the problem. You need not dwell on matter's you can't do much with. The least you can do is be there for the person when they're down and needing help getting back up. You cant go there and just fix the problem, they need to do that them self's. You may offer advice when needed, and cheer them up, tell em it'll all be ok and it's not the end of the world. But if you try to fix a problem for them, then how will they learn to corect it them self's? Now, you know i'm not meaning to be rude, and you know how i am. But read this, and think on it some, you'll realize my words are true, tho barbaric as they may be they're true. Now please, don't take it out on yourself, for it's not your fault Help when needed, but remember, you can only do so much, otherwise it's like you're leading them through life for them, and later on when they cant get a hold of you, they'd be lost. Some things they need to work out themselfs, other's work them self's out naturally. I hope you understand all this, and i hope it helps you some. You know i don't mean to be rude or anything, I'm just telling you the truth technically. Offline Majeh69 · Community Member · Sat May 12, 2007 @ 04:52pm

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