stargir123
latly life hasnt been good to me. basicly, i cant get over things people have said. its like everytime someone says something to make me feel like a loser it gets burned into my head. it just keeps going on and on and on! the worst thing is something my x-bf said to me on the phone because i told him to give me some space after he took a joke to far and pushed me down at school it doesnt sound bad but so many people were there laughing at me. i also hit my head pretty hard. but any who i called him and he started yelling at me "you know, ever sinse we broke up youv become a real b***h! i mean everyone in class hates you exsepted for paulina (my bff)" 1st off if iv change in any way sinse we had broken up at that time it would have been me sticking up for myself more. he was a horrible bf he never treated me nicly. anywho on the on the phone, he then started to say some other stuff but i hung up. those words have been ringing in my head for over 3 months! iv been 2nd quessing my self thinking "was i really like that?" even though i know i wasnt and that he just said that to hurt me. but it cant seem to leave alone it still keeps me up at night! thats just one quote that i think about there are countless others.... iv always been anxiety prone, but sinse i started highschool it all has built up. i also suffer from dyslexia and a.d.d and some other stuff so iv always been singled out in school. so mcr says "dont take s**t from anyone" but its hard to not when uv grown so use to taking it all in (that sounds nasty "i take in s**t" haha) its like if u let someone get under ur skin (like a beatle from a The Mummy movies) then how do you get them out?
Ok. Well. 1st, it sounds like your ex-bf is abusive, have you told anyone about this? You sould probably confront some type of adult, ebcause from what it sounds, he's abusive. =/
And 2nd, i have the same problem. I cant block out things that people say to me. It kinda just gets stuck in my head. My ex-bf says that ive become a monster sense we broke up, and that im mean. But i dont believe that. Bceause he's got his whole group of people against me, and they are spreading rmours about me, just because we broke up, so i think he and his friend ARE the mean ones, and not me. Yeah. Some of it could be your fault, but definitely not everything okay? I know how you feel. How long has your problem been going on. Mine went and is still going on for 3 months. Its HORRIBBLE!
and 3rd, to the question at the end. You can't really just ignore it. Maybe, forgive each other, but if not, my next plan is REVENGE. ;D
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