Okay. I somewhat know how you feel. Just nix the the whole job part and the uber emo-ness.
I mean, that's why we're all here, but...eh. Nevermind.
Anyways, I know that it sucks to be feeling really bad, post it online hoping that someone will help, and then get flamed. That kinda sucks some pretty serious monkey balls.
Sooooo.... if you think you need help, or really know that you want help, please pm me.
I am called the Advice Ninja, in case you didn't know.
0.o
Yes, that's right. I will bestow my ninja-like powers down upon you. eek lol.
Pm me and I'll help you figure things out.
Peace.