have you ever loved someone, and they just played you?
well thats what happened to me.
i meet this guy, ryan, at a party thrown by our mutual friend when i was 14 years old. at that time he had just turned 20. we got really close after meeting, and continued to be friends. now its been almost 4 years since then and in that time he has become one of my closest friends and we talk via facebook almost every day.
a few months back i told him that ive liked him for a long time now, and he said he already knew that then dropped the topic completely. at this time our age difference is my 17 to his 23, which every time after that he would bring up. it bothered me that he ignored my feels, yet continued to tease and flirt with me on a daily basis. i finally decided to ask him how he saw us. if we were just friends, or if he was interested in me.
when i asked he wouldnt give me an answer, and has now been avoiding me for almost a week. leaving me more then a little pissed off that he wont just reply. i already explained to him that if he didnt like me he could just tell me. i wouldnt die if my feels werent returned. i just wanted to know if i had a chance or not, but i guess thats too much to ask for when i cant possibly love him because im just a child.
(a child he thought of as a friend and talked with for the last 4 years)
