When you can't even talk about it openly...

[Isis Sister Of Osiris]

Have you ever done something that was so very wrong that you can't even bring yourself to talk about it to anyone, ever?

i'm not talking about something horrible like murder, rape, or exchanging your sister's deep-conditioning treatment with hair-removal cream. I mean something that society considers wrong, even if nobody is actually harmed - except maybe yourself.

I did something this weekend... nobody got hurt, no property was lost, damaged or stolen, but it's complicated my life in a way I never imagined before.

The worst part is I can't see a happy outcome to this, not for me.  

[Cherry-x-Sorbet]

Gigi Deveraux

I completely understand your guilt, as I've done something that can only hurt myself in the end.

My advice is to keep from doing it again, whatever it was.
But the most important part is forgiving yourself.

 

[Isis Sister Of Osiris]

Cherry Ki

My advice is to keep from doing it again, whatever it was.
But the most important part is forgiving yourself.

You know... it's not so much that I feel guilt as it is that if we get found out (there's another person involved) we're going to be in for a lot of grief from the world around us.  

[Lady Kira X]

I've done things I'm not proud of.. but I'm willing to take it to the grave before ever admitting it out loud. Though if it was found out, I'm willing to accept the consequences.. just not if I don't have to.
 

[Isis Sister Of Osiris]

Other Person Involved and I are meeting tomorrow to talk about it...  

[L4uren]

i think we're all entitled to a few secrets.

 

[Isis Sister Of Osiris]

L4uren

i think we're all entitled to a few secrets.

Yeah... and when you need advice on one, it's a real bummer.  

[the mage-girl]

Try to be easy on yourself and post again if you need to vent. 3nodding  

[Isis Sister Of Osiris]

the mage-girl

Try to be easy on yourself and post again if you need to vent. 3nodding

Thanks...

I'm going to see Other Party Involved (aka OPI from now on) this afternoon. We have a lot to talk about...  

[Isis Sister Of Osiris]

Well... OPI and I have been discussing what happened. A lot. Neither of us regrets anything... and we both want to continue with what we began. It'll have to be in secret, though. Still, the alternative isn't really an option for us.

I guess it's full steam ahead into unknown waters.  

[the mage-girl]

Sounds a little scary... But I trust you know what you're doing. 3nodding

Good luck and be careful!  

[Isis Sister Of Osiris]

the mage-girl

Sounds a little scary... But I trust you know what you're doing. 3nodding

Good luck and be careful!

Thanks emotion_hug Maybe some day I'll be able to tell the whole story openly.  

[TH3_G1ITCH_]

In your first post you stated that:

"I can't see a happy outcome to this, not for me."

Do you still feel this way, even after talking with OPI?

I, obviously, don't want to pry which is why I won't go more in-depth but it worried me when you wrote that.

Since you and OPI are still going to continue with it, i thought perhaps you feel differently now from your original post?

Keep in touch~!

 

[Isis Sister Of Osiris]

Aristocrat In Pink

In your first post you stated that:

"I can't see a happy outcome to this, not for me."

Do you still feel this way, even after talking with OPI?

I, obviously, don't want to pry which is why I won't go more in-depth but it worried me when you wrote that.

Since you and OPI are still going to continue with it, i thought perhaps you feel differently now from your original post?

Keep in touch~!

Maybe I should have phrased it differently... what's going on, it's wrong, but it's also... right. It makes us both happy, even if it can't last. When it ends, it's going to hurt, but I figure I may as well enjoy what i can while I can.  

[Isis Sister Of Osiris]

How can something everyone else says is totally wrong feel so absolutely right?