*is at college*

For once, I sorta have a few guys attracted to me, but they're not exactly the ones I'd like to have attracted to me. xD Anyhoo, this is a me rant about them and the difficulties they present... basically, I would have made a journal entry but I don't want some of my friends to see it. xD The first two may be interesting enough to read, but you may ignore the others if you do decide to read.


First, I had a sort of stalker the first week I came here. Like, he called me 11 in times in two days and lurked outside my building until my suitemate came out and pretty much had to let him in. This guy actually did pretty much confess to liking me, but I was very firm in that I wanted to be nothing more than friends. He mostly leaves me alone now, though he whines that I don't hang out with him or that I link arms with guys who aren't him. >.> Fortunately, I really don't see him much now.


Then, there's a bunch of guys I play soccer with. They're pretty cool cuz they're just like friends I see and play with. But the other day, one asked me to a dance, which I couldn't go to because I was celebrating a friend's birthday. He asked if we'd be there later; I said yeah, probably; he called me at like 1 in the morning wondering if we were still there (we weren't); I told him he could have a piece of cake to make it up to him.
The next day, I went to give him his piece of cake on the way to visit some of my friends in the tower. He invited me into his building... I said it probably wouldn't hurt to just stop by. The guy is Hispanic (Peruvian American, I think... he -is- a soccer player) and has his ears pierced. In his room, he opened a whole drawer full of his earrings and asked me which ones I liked best. xD I'm sorry, but that was a turn off. A guy who has like more earrings than I do. xD Finally, I convinced him I needed to go to the tower (he was saying we could watch a movie or something) but felt like I should tell him he could come out of courtesy. He came. Luckily, there were only three of the more nerdy guys in the room in the tower we went to, and he said he'd leave and maybe come back later. He called me twice at like 2:30 in the morning, but I ignored the calls because it was LATE.


Before we get into the serious stuff, there's also Jacob. I dunno if Jacob likes me or if he just follows girls closely (Desiree thought he probably liked her too), but yeah, there's Jacob. Basically he just seems to like me and stays close to me and seems to like hanging out with me. Now that I think about it, maybe he does just like me as a friend. When we first met, it seemed like he stayed physically closer to me than anyone else, but maybe that's just his way. Anyhoo.


Then there's Ethan. Ethan's like my best friend here, but I'm not attracted to him as more than a friend. I also don't want to give him even a chance because I know him well enough that I'm 99.9% sure that I won't want to go out with him even in the future... there are just too many things against it. So I thought things were going fine and we were being all best friends-y, but then one of my only girl friends here, Desiree, asked me if I liked him as more than a friend. I told her no, and asked why, to which she responded that she thought he might feel differently. A few days later, she came up to me again, and said that what I didn't feel, Ethan did. Then she went on about not having a problem asking people how they felt as long as it didn't involve her, which means that she must have asked him. Sooooo, crap. Also, I think she might be right because Ethan always asks for a hug before he goes (not that big of a deal--he also hugs Desiree and other people), but the last hug he left his arms around my waist for a while after I'd let go of him. It was kinda awkward.


I guess next I should talk about Griffin. Griffin I sort of like. Like, I like parts of him but not others. I know that's weird/lame. I dunno. I had a lot of fun with him Friday, but Saturday sucked. A lot. And most of the group (except for Ethan cuz he wasn't there) sort of thinks Griffin and me are a thing now because we were linking arms and stayed out after they'd gone in and because I sat by him and went with him to get his laundry. And Friday was really good, but Saturday it was like we just weren't clicking or something. I almost felt like I didn't like him, and it almost seemed like he'd been a different person Friday, especially when he said, "So, I guess you could say that we like each other." =(


So then there's Nick. I don't know if Nick actually likes me. He always offers his hand to me for high fives and sometimes grabs it a bit longer, but he's kind of like Ethan in that he does that (offers high fives, at least) to a lot of people. I've also run into him conveniently by himself at brunch a couple of times. Friday when we were outside and Griffin had his arm around me, Nick asked me something (if I was okay, maybe?) and I said, "Fine, just cold," and he put his arm around me on the other side. Saturday, especially, he seemed like he may have liked me... he had me put my hand on a warm dryer by his, talked just to me when Griffin and Desiree were right there too, and put his hand on my shoulder before he left even though I was kind of obviously paying attention to Griffin.
Nick's nice, and I'd probably give him a chance before Ethan, but the problem is that when Desiree was questioning me about whom I liked, she told me she liked Nick. (That was also a bit before he started acting more like he liked me, so I told her truthfully--then, at least--that I didn't like Nick. I don't know if I do now. Not really, but I'd be willing to give him a chance, I guess.) So Nick is kind of off-limits to me, but I don't think he knows that. And I can't tell if he likes Desiree or not... most of the time, he seems like he likes her as at least a good friend (I dunno if more), but Sunday, I think he may have been annoyed with her. He seemed maybe like it. I really do not know.

So basically, I'm kind of confused and don't know what to do but am not necessarily seeking advice as much as trying to get these frustrations out onto paper so that I may feel better and be enlightened about what to do. And sorry that sentence was so long. xD