So I have lost 72 pounds to date and have shrunk 4 jean sizes this past year and I know that I am still a little overweight but I look pretty average. I know that I am no longer even in contention for fattest girl on campus or in almost any given room.
So having that logic I realized this week that, even though I am much more confident than I used to be, I am still very insecure around other women. You see, I've been rushing sororities at my college this week which might just add to this insecurity of "will they like me" but I look at the other women and think "they're so much thinner than me" even if I know I look better. Then there is always the "they have no idea what I used to look like, they probably still find me grotesque!" And I don't want to lead into conversations about my weight loss because I know I can talk forever about it and for some reason I just don't think it will leave a good impression.
It's all so illogical; I know that these girls will not dislike me because I used to be fat, and just from seeing some girls in the sororities I am sure they would still have an open mind to me even if I was more overweight. But just something about it makes me nervous.
I kind of wonder if this insecurity is what maybe got me to my highest weight of 240 pounds to begin with. I'm glad I'm at least acknowledging it this time and am not turning to food.
Does anyone else have these kinds of feelings?
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