Edit:: Vivi got rejected. New dilemma in latest post (light pink one)
So, I'm in need of a little help, darlings. xD
This first half of the school year has been just insane; I finally managed to let go of my previous crush of three years, since I finally realized that I didn't actually think of him like that anymore. And I started focusing on my friends, I made time for them and hung out with them and got to know them better, made new friends, turned a new leaf. And I got to know one of my guy friends much better, we started hanging out a lot and I learned so much about him. We're so similar it's ridiculous, we constantly finish each other's thoughts, we share all the same ideas and philosophies and ambitions, and I'm just having the time of my life with him. I can't be with him and not laugh, we've got the same sense of humour; we're always trading jokes or trying to make the other person laugh, and he just makes me so totally happy. I'm just... absolutely crazy about him. I could talk forever about how great he is, but I realized that I'm getting further and further away from the point and I should probably navigate back that way.
And after I realized that I really do like him, I've debated back and forth asking him out. I've been like, literally a breath and a few syllables away from telling him how I feel, but I always back out. XP And I've kinda decided that I'm sick of deliberating and procrastinating. I'm scared because I don't know if he likes me or not-- I'm not going to lie, it really could go either way. I mean, we flirt all the time, but it's not like he's strictly like that with me. He's just more-so with me, especially when we're alone. And self-confidence issues are playing behind the scenes around this, too, so I have decided that I just really do not know and I won't know unless I take a chance. I'm scared of losing him as a friend if this doesn't work out, like, things getting awkward, but I really care about him as more than just a friend.
I don't know what the best way would be. I've gone over dozens of short scripts of what I'd say, deconstructed them all, looked for ways they could go wrong, and it's killing me. XP I'm not sure if I should wait until after Valentine's day, because I don't want it to seem like I'm just desperate for anyone because of the stupid day. And I'm afraid of after the day because of the same reason... lol. Basically it's just an excuse for me to prolong that moment of ultimate fear.
I have two tickets to a concert (Billy Talent! n.n;; ) that my mom got me for Christmas that's coming up in early March, I just realized this morning, and I've been debating who to bring (and of course he was always the first person I thought of, because I think he'd appreciate the show, too, but never really thought beyond the fact that I'd like to bring him. I don't know why. xD) So I thought, hey!! I could ask him to go to the concert with me. But I'm having trouble figuring out how to word it so that it doesn't sound like just his friend asking him to attend a concert with her, but an actual legit date kind of thing. We're really close friends and we're always hanging out and going somewhere together, so I'm thinking that he'd easily just think it was a friend sort of thing.
So... ah, assuming you finished this whole dysfunctional and no doubt gigantic paragraph of disorderly rambling, what do you girls think I should do? Should I ask him out? Should I confess how I feel? Should I ask him to the concert? And how should I do it, when?
I know that I'm definitely doing it face-to-face, because holy hell, I'm almost eighteen (march 17th~); if I can't face my fears, I've very little hope for the future.
Thanks, darlings~
So, I'm in need of a little help, darlings. xD
This first half of the school year has been just insane; I finally managed to let go of my previous crush of three years, since I finally realized that I didn't actually think of him like that anymore. And I started focusing on my friends, I made time for them and hung out with them and got to know them better, made new friends, turned a new leaf. And I got to know one of my guy friends much better, we started hanging out a lot and I learned so much about him. We're so similar it's ridiculous, we constantly finish each other's thoughts, we share all the same ideas and philosophies and ambitions, and I'm just having the time of my life with him. I can't be with him and not laugh, we've got the same sense of humour; we're always trading jokes or trying to make the other person laugh, and he just makes me so totally happy. I'm just... absolutely crazy about him. I could talk forever about how great he is, but I realized that I'm getting further and further away from the point and I should probably navigate back that way.
And after I realized that I really do like him, I've debated back and forth asking him out. I've been like, literally a breath and a few syllables away from telling him how I feel, but I always back out. XP And I've kinda decided that I'm sick of deliberating and procrastinating. I'm scared because I don't know if he likes me or not-- I'm not going to lie, it really could go either way. I mean, we flirt all the time, but it's not like he's strictly like that with me. He's just more-so with me, especially when we're alone. And self-confidence issues are playing behind the scenes around this, too, so I have decided that I just really do not know and I won't know unless I take a chance. I'm scared of losing him as a friend if this doesn't work out, like, things getting awkward, but I really care about him as more than just a friend.
I don't know what the best way would be. I've gone over dozens of short scripts of what I'd say, deconstructed them all, looked for ways they could go wrong, and it's killing me. XP I'm not sure if I should wait until after Valentine's day, because I don't want it to seem like I'm just desperate for anyone because of the stupid day. And I'm afraid of after the day because of the same reason... lol. Basically it's just an excuse for me to prolong that moment of ultimate fear.
I have two tickets to a concert (Billy Talent! n.n;; ) that my mom got me for Christmas that's coming up in early March, I just realized this morning, and I've been debating who to bring (and of course he was always the first person I thought of, because I think he'd appreciate the show, too, but never really thought beyond the fact that I'd like to bring him. I don't know why. xD) So I thought, hey!! I could ask him to go to the concert with me. But I'm having trouble figuring out how to word it so that it doesn't sound like just his friend asking him to attend a concert with her, but an actual legit date kind of thing. We're really close friends and we're always hanging out and going somewhere together, so I'm thinking that he'd easily just think it was a friend sort of thing.
So... ah, assuming you finished this whole dysfunctional and no doubt gigantic paragraph of disorderly rambling, what do you girls think I should do? Should I ask him out? Should I confess how I feel? Should I ask him to the concert? And how should I do it, when?
I know that I'm definitely doing it face-to-face, because holy hell, I'm almost eighteen (march 17th~); if I can't face my fears, I've very little hope for the future.
Thanks, darlings~