Heh, yeah, so I feel like an idiot. I'd posted in this guild a couple other times about this guy, and so it turns out he has a girlfriend. I am absolutely the last person on the face of the Earth to know anything about anything. My best friend knew, and she didn't tell me. She could have, but she couldn't bring herself to do it. So now, here I am, feeling like a complete and utter imbecile, because she knew all along and wouldn't tell me. I had to find out by unintentional eavesdropping. As opposed to one of my best friends on the face of the planet. Mostly I feel stupid about it because I couldn't see it when it was blindingly obvious, but a lot because I'm pretty hurt by it all, especially the fact that she couldn't bother to put me out of my misery. But that's another matter entirely.
So now I've been upset and mopey for a couple weeks, and I just can't get him out of my head. I've tried to find other guys, but none of them catch my interest like he did. There's one guy I thought I might like, but I don't feel about him anything like what I felt about my infatuation. This whole rigamarole has done nothing but ruin my self-esteem and self-worth, wrecked what I had in place for my life, exacerbated other crap I'm dealing with in my life at the moment, and just... utterly destroyed me. Everything reminds me of him. And I can't seem to smash it through my thick skull that he doesn't want me, that we will never have anything. I keep thinking of possibilities, like his girlfriend doesn't exist. I don't know how to get back to my old life, before him.
Worse, his girlfriend? She's a complete and utter b***h, and I'm not biased; all my friends agree, and she was like this before I knew this about her, this isn't a new condition. She's given me the dirtiest glares before, for no reason, I had done abso-f*cking-lutely nothing to her. She just gives off these 'megabitch' vibes. Don't know how he can stand her~!
She's even living at his HOUSE-- another fact my friend wouldn't tell me.
So now I've been upset and mopey for a couple weeks, and I just can't get him out of my head. I've tried to find other guys, but none of them catch my interest like he did. There's one guy I thought I might like, but I don't feel about him anything like what I felt about my infatuation. This whole rigamarole has done nothing but ruin my self-esteem and self-worth, wrecked what I had in place for my life, exacerbated other crap I'm dealing with in my life at the moment, and just... utterly destroyed me. Everything reminds me of him. And I can't seem to smash it through my thick skull that he doesn't want me, that we will never have anything. I keep thinking of possibilities, like his girlfriend doesn't exist. I don't know how to get back to my old life, before him.
Worse, his girlfriend? She's a complete and utter b***h, and I'm not biased; all my friends agree, and she was like this before I knew this about her, this isn't a new condition. She's given me the dirtiest glares before, for no reason, I had done abso-f*cking-lutely nothing to her. She just gives off these 'megabitch' vibes. Don't know how he can stand her~!
She's even living at his HOUSE-- another fact my friend wouldn't tell me.