WARNING: HARSH GRAPHICS! My journal...

[ol_evil_eye_Riddle_box]

I hope this isn't too horrible to post, I just need something to motivate me. I am having problems with my emotions as of late. I have been having trouble with caring about anything, so hopefully if I see this everyday (because I will be here every day), it will knock some since into my brain. Mean comments usually help me realize sometimes, that's what it took last time I lost weight, I was bullied about it all the time and I lost 60 pounds.

Oh, by the way, my stomach is screwed up because I had surgery, I had internal bleeding, it's a huge scar, and I hate it. I also edited the picture so there isn't any problems with my panties showing. I don't see why there would be considering people show off their bikinis all the time, but just in case.

Okay, so, my name in short is evil eye
I am 18 years old (19 in july)
I weigh 210 at an average
I am roughly 5 foot 5 inches
I probably could stand to lose about 70 pounds, but my goal for now is just to get out of the 200's, I haven't seen the 190's in a very long time sweatdrop

As I have said, I will post here every day, saying what I ate, how much water I drank, how much exercise my day consisted of, and I will keep a short journal if I feel. The color of font will change for every 10 pounds I lose (that's just so I can keep track of that easier).

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Water: 0

Breakfast: 9:00 pm (I am up at night, not during the day)
Today, I took my mom out to eat for mother's day (since we both are off for once and next week we both work...). I ate four pieces of bacon (probably shouldn't have done that) two eggs, and hash browns. Then we went to Wal-mart and did household shopping. I got her a new down feather pillow, picture frames, two cheap pillows for me (we needed new pillows), and a movie she wanted.

Snack/lunch: 11:00-current (12)
When we got home, I ate some chex mix and a 12 oz Diet pepsi (I started this when I woke up, still not done with it).

Exercise:
Just walking around Wal-mart (not much work included there)
Might go for a walk later tonight). EDIT: No, I did not get to exercise, it is 1:30 am, and I am still very tired.

Dinner: Undecided if I will actually have dinner yet, probably cereal. EDIT: I decided to go to bed instead of eating

I will go to bed about 5, I have an early day tomorrow (really early, about 10). I'll come one before I go to bed and update everything.


 

[__penguin__]

Yay! Good luck, you can do it! biggrin

You're probably right about the 70 lbs... this bmi calculator says a healthy weight for your age & height is 107-157 lbs (depending on your frame). So good job! I also really like that idea about changing colors ever 10 lbs. 4laugh

As a starting point, try completely cutting out soda. I dunno how much you drink already, but after a month or two without soda, that's probably about 10 lbs lost right there. It's not as hard as it sounds. Just every time you feel you want a soda, grab a bottle of water instead. If you have trouble, try at first limiting yourself to 1 soda per day, and going from there. Also, feel free to ask me if you have any questions about diet/exercise, I'm glad to help! biggrin Again, good luck!  

[Iconised Ghost]

you say that you will be online everyday- i am online a lot if you ever want someone to PM 3nodding  

[ol_evil_eye_Riddle_box]

__penguin__

Yay! Good luck, you can do it! biggrin

You're probably right about the 70 lbs... this bmi calculator says a healthy weight for your age & height is 107-157 lbs (depending on your frame). So good job! I also really like that idea about changing colors ever 10 lbs. 4laugh

As a starting point, try completely cutting out soda. I dunno how much you drink already, but after a month or two without soda, that's probably about 10 lbs lost right there. It's not as hard as it sounds. Just every time you feel you want a soda, grab a bottle of water instead. If you have trouble, try at first limiting yourself to 1 soda per day, and going from there. Also, feel free to ask me if you have any questions about diet/exercise, I'm glad to help! biggrin Again, good luck!

Thank you. I really don't drink soda that much, it's like once a month, I don't really like the after taste (tea on the other hand I have just about everyday, and probably should cut back on that) thank you for the support.  

[ol_evil_eye_Riddle_box]

May 5th, 2008 9:00am

Water: l l

Breakfast: 9:00am
Corn Flakes 1/2 cup of milk teaspoon of sugar

I fell asleep around 11 and woke up at 4

Lunch: 7:00 pm
More chips and a slim-fast (I don't drink it for the diet, I just love the taste and it does, to an extent, make me less hungry.)

Dinner:

Exercise: I will be going to the gym about 12:00 until 2, so I will put the stats up when I get back. After that, I have a date with a friend to go to the movies. No popcorn or soda. EDIT: I didn't get go to the movies, and I fell asleep so I couldn't go tot he gym. I will be riding my bike to the store though, and I will go for a walk later.
 

[ol_evil_eye_Riddle_box]

May 6th, 2008 11:59

I am so tired. I had two hours of sleep today, probably less considering my dreams kept being interrupted by people calling me... Waking me up three times... I ended up being late to work about 10 minutes (I called right when I was supposed to be there, so I didn't get into trouble.)

Water: l l l

Breakfast:
Cereal 300 calories

Lunch:
Chips 300 calories and slim fast 200 calories

Dinner: 360 calorie hamburger meat and 130 calorie bread 250 calorie potato

After work food: 90 calories piece of meat

Total calories: 1630

All of this is estimated, so it's not exact. I will start paying attention to my calorie intake. I also had coffee and tea.

I should stop drinking so much tea and coffee (I like the two really sweet when I drink it)

Sometimes, when I eat, I put too much inside of me, and it doesn't digest fast enough, or it goes down really slow. I end up feeling like I'm going to throw up because there is too much air inside of my tummy. All day, after lunch I had what felt like heartburn, but it was from me burping up some food. I made myself throw up so it would stop, it helped, my tummy felt better, but then when I burped, all I could taste is acid. xp

Tomorrow, I am going to the movies with a different friend, it's so weird because I never really go out with people other than my baby. I'm not a very social person. So it is kind of awkward for me.  

[alwyscrying240]

Maybe you are having bad tummy feelings because you are eating too fast. Try to chew every bite slowly, and about 20 times each.  

[ol_evil_eye_Riddle_box]

alwyscrying240

Maybe you are having bad tummy feelings because you are eating too fast. Try to chew every bite slowly, and about 20 times each.

I used to eat really slow, but everyone would complain, and overtime, I started eating faster because I was always in a rush, I probably am eating to fast, but not that fast, I give myself time to chew it and stuff, but I still end up burping a lot. I don't know, thank you biggrin  

[ol_evil_eye_Riddle_box]

May 7, 2008

Water: l

Breakfast: 6:20 am
2 servings of cereal, 1 1/2 cups of milk, and a table spoon of sugar.
Total calories: 260+195+25=480

Lunch: two slim fasts Calories less than 500

Dinner: 2 pbj sandwiches and sun chips.

I don't know why, but anytime I go to sleep lately, I only sleep 4 hours, and wake up, then it is really hard to fall back asleep. I really hate that, I get so tired when that happens.

EDIT: Okay, so, my internet was totally screwed last night, my boyfriend had to fix it for me when he got home biggrin (did I mention he was gone? No? Well, he was gone, and now, HE'S BACK xd xd xd . He's been gone for a little over two weeks. I'M SO HAPPY!!!)


 

[Iconised Ghost]

your slider is so cool! ...may i steal it? i didnt see it when i was on that site redface  

[ol_evil_eye_Riddle_box]

Iconised Ghost

your slider is so cool! ...may i steal it? i didnt see it when i was on that site redface

lol sure  

[ol_evil_eye_Riddle_box]

May 8, 2008

Water: (I had three cups of ice, does that count?)

Breakfast: 4:00 am
I went to Denny's and ate half (actually less than half) of a Boca burger and fries. With tea. I ended up throwing up (little amounts at a time) most of the fries because lately, food has been getting stuck in my chest. It really sucks. We have no car, so we walk, and every few feet, I would puke up some. I ate the fries really slow too, and I chewed them up real good, this is getting really irritating. I am still having problems burping and spitting up and it's 4 hours later.

Lunch: 8:00
270 calorie meat, 230 calories potato, sweet tea

Dinner: two pieces of bacon, 2 cups of milk, 1 piece of chicken, and another potato.

I was very bad today...

I forgot to mention, I did a bit of walking today, I walked about 2-3 miles today and... that exercise you do in bed... redface ...twice...
 

[ol_evil_eye_Riddle_box]

May 9, 2008

Water: l l l

Breakfast: 3:00 am
Cereal

Lunch:
1 serving of Ravioli, and 1 serving of Chester popcorn

Dinner:
1 1/2 chicken tenders, 1 serving of chesters popcorn, milk

Instead of riding my bike straight home, I walked to wal-mart, then, rode my bike home (my feet were really sore from the day, and I am really tired, I got off at 1). i know I haven't been eating veggies, I never really get a chance to, only before I go to work, and at the that time, I want breakfast, not veggies. I'll try to get it into my "meals".
 

[Lady Schist]

You may be finding these things happening to you because of the fat content of what you're eating. The only thing I can suggest is to go on a cleanse, they usually really help with weight loss and they're not too terrible to go on.  

[ol_evil_eye_Riddle_box]

Seismic Schist

You may be finding these things happening to you because of the fat content of what you're eating. The only thing I can suggest is to go on a cleanse, they usually really help with weight loss and they're not too terrible to go on.

Actually, i was thinking that today, so i didn't eat at work for my break, and it didn't happen as much. So yeah, I'm not eating at work anymore (Or I'll try not to...)