I've been recieving E-mails, comments, MySpace messages, Gaia PMs and texts from some of my friends asking why I don't come on Gaia and all. Well, ha, I don't even know where to begin.
It really happen after my mom left (Thanksgiving evening) and I was having a really bad emotional breakdown because I thought my mom left me(I) with my father. I didn't hardly get on for about 3 days. Durning that week, I kept getting sick, withdrawling (basically, sitting in my room listening to very low music). Well, it got worst. My dad verbally harass my mom to me, like telling me she was a whore since supposly she was with another man/woman. And that didn't help the stress/emotion I was already feeling. Well, she came home yesterday, and he kept doing it! he kept yelling and yelling to the point I told him to shut up! He calls my mom a whore, slut, k**t, everything. Now since they are getting a divorce, it just makes the abuse more. He kept yelling at me like it's my fault and now I really believe it is. He evening yelled cause I was standing up for her when I told him she was only gone 9 days not 8 like he said. Now he hates me more and it's like he doesn't want me. Saying "Go and live with your mother!" It's like he doesn't even care that I'm his kid. I have a sister too, who was over yesterday. They won't stop fighting over who owns this and that. We dont' want the house. I just want to take things in my room and leave. Now he keeps saying that he's going to throw us out. I just want to leave the house, but I have no friends or family to run to that I know I'll be bothering them. It has become very bad whenever so one askes me of my dad, I reply "I have no father". I kno he's on drugs again too, but no body believes me.
It's gotten so bad that I want to the doctors to get a pyche check and now I'm a nervous reck. Ha. A nervous reck, me? Never saw it coming. My mother and I are moving around January, early Feb. I wish it was sooner. I refuse to tell any of my close friends since they would throw a fit. I already been stress due to school work, but I ignore everything and I try to move on. But BJ ask me to post of why I've been so..lost? So I hope I am not bothering anyone. If so, I'll delete it. Well...um...I guess I see you around when ever I can get on again. <3 BL
It really happen after my mom left (Thanksgiving evening) and I was having a really bad emotional breakdown because I thought my mom left me(I) with my father. I didn't hardly get on for about 3 days. Durning that week, I kept getting sick, withdrawling (basically, sitting in my room listening to very low music). Well, it got worst. My dad verbally harass my mom to me, like telling me she was a whore since supposly she was with another man/woman. And that didn't help the stress/emotion I was already feeling. Well, she came home yesterday, and he kept doing it! he kept yelling and yelling to the point I told him to shut up! He calls my mom a whore, slut, k**t, everything. Now since they are getting a divorce, it just makes the abuse more. He kept yelling at me like it's my fault and now I really believe it is. He evening yelled cause I was standing up for her when I told him she was only gone 9 days not 8 like he said. Now he hates me more and it's like he doesn't want me. Saying "Go and live with your mother!" It's like he doesn't even care that I'm his kid. I have a sister too, who was over yesterday. They won't stop fighting over who owns this and that. We dont' want the house. I just want to take things in my room and leave. Now he keeps saying that he's going to throw us out. I just want to leave the house, but I have no friends or family to run to that I know I'll be bothering them. It has become very bad whenever so one askes me of my dad, I reply "I have no father". I kno he's on drugs again too, but no body believes me.
It's gotten so bad that I want to the doctors to get a pyche check and now I'm a nervous reck. Ha. A nervous reck, me? Never saw it coming. My mother and I are moving around January, early Feb. I wish it was sooner. I refuse to tell any of my close friends since they would throw a fit. I already been stress due to school work, but I ignore everything and I try to move on. But BJ ask me to post of why I've been so..lost? So I hope I am not bothering anyone. If so, I'll delete it. Well...um...I guess I see you around when ever I can get on again. <3 BL
