Really I'm starting to lean the other way again. I'm starting to forget her eyes and I can't love a smile. It is true I don't want to be detached but I don't know how else to live. In fact I am almost positive that I saw it through someone else's eyes, and at best I am supposed to help them. It was probably me just feeling his love for her, it seems to make more sense to me.

Edit: thank you all for your help.