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Posted: Tue Dec 12, 2006 7:35 pm
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Posted: Fri Dec 15, 2006 6:19 pm
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I've felt unloved since I was 2 years old. My parents are devorced. I feel like my dad didn't care enough about me. When my parents were together he still did drugs and stuff. When he had my half sisters w/ his second wife, he cleaned up his act. He just had a son w/ his 3rd wife, & now he's all Christiany. I feel like I wasn't important enough to him so he didn't change. When he lived w/ 2nd wife, I hated seeing him smiling w/ her & my half sisters everytime I would come over, because I never had a happy family. My mom is re-married, & I feel she cares more about her husband than me. If he dose drugs ordose somthing stupid, she lets it go, but I have to be perfect or she dosn't love me.
Also, I've felt so ampty inside since my grand mother died. She practicaly raised me, & then she was just gone. I don't even realy miss her, just the way things use to be: happy, safe, & I felt loved.
Every time I try to love, the person leaves me or dies, so what is the piont anymore? At this piont, I know to much about the human brain, and I analyze love, so mabey I wont feel I need it as much, but I still do. I've almost completely lost theability to care about others, I feel so numb inside. My soul is in a discusting state, pain & plesure are so intertwined I can barly tell the 2 apart...
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Posted: Fri Dec 15, 2006 11:21 pm
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