Getting Over Intimacy/Sexual Issues?

[Fuit Gummy]

Hi girls, sorry I haven't been posting so
much.... And sorry that the first thing I write is a "help me" topic. The whole
thing is relatively long, but the spoiler has the long story short in case you
wanna skip some details.

Anyways....


I've been single for about 2 years now and, recently, I've been thinking of
looking again. In this time, I've lost all contact with my exes that I kept
as friends and have made a few new friends. Two of these new friends have
openly shown romantic interest in me. After awhile, I started to develop
subtle feelings for one of them.

Being single and in no way open to romance for 2 years has left me...
Dry? For a lack of a better word. When I think of getting close to people,
just as I always have, it makes me really nervous. Like I said,
the thought of romance and relationships has always made me
uncomfortable.

And, in a relationship, it's even worse. I've always been one of those
super unromantic and non-PDA kinds of people. I get so uncomfortable
when my partner makes some kind of cuddly/sexual advance on me
to the point I get very angry.

My mom likes to say I'm one of these:
- Genophobic
- Erotophobic
- Paraphobic

Basically, she says that I have an extreme fear of being intimate or close.
Especially romantically/sexually. Now, before you go assuming, I'm not
one of those people that thinks all romances have to be sexual. I am
still a virgin. But, anyways, I know she's right. I am very terrified of
being close to people.

Now, what does this have to do with my current romantic pursuers? Well,
if I wish to pursue a relationship... I wanna be able to hug my partner
openly and not physically tense up... It's always been this way, I feel
physically shaky and tense and just... Scared to be loving.

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Basically, I'm afraid to be close/romantic/sexual with anyone.
I wanna start a relationship with a guy I like but I'm too scared to get
close to him.

What do?

Any insight or advice would be appreciated. I have no idea how to go about
this. Like, should I go see a doctor or something..?

Feel free to ask me to clarify if you need to.

 

[Fuit Gummy]

Snuggle Soldier

Thank you for the reply... I didn't think
anyone would ;A; I'm a little embarrassed about going to a therapist about
something like this, but I will try. Ty again!

emotion_hug

 

[Nomerico]

Brommiel

I thought I was the only one who felt like this, like angry and "weird"and stuff...ahhh ; - ;  

[Miss_XxAriaxX]

Is kissing and hugging okay?
If it's only about sexual advance. I think it's normal. It's not everyone that is ready for that... However, maybe there is a deeper issue so you should look for a therapist.