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 Posted: Thu Oct 10, 2013 4:14 pm
Otherwise known as Zol being dumb.
Ok, so this isn't important so I figured it belonged in le chat box. Since this is more of a casually/funny-ha-ha topic.
So, one thing I have always really really loved about Gaia is the ability to customize your avatars. Seriously, I am a big fan of being able to just spend ten minutes messing around in my invo until I have an outfit, only to scrap it and make a new one. I just really enjoy like dress up style... things. I was a big fan of dolls growing up, when I got older I moved up to porcelain, and now that I am an adult [pffft] I oogle bjds all the tiiiime. ;A;
So, anyway, while I was making outfits to help in Fate's charity [click that link in my sig yo] I was really enjoying myself because it was a challenge to make an outfit out of just gold shop stuff, especially since I live for the body mod items [arms/face/legs]. So making outfits I liked without using that stuff was like a game for me.
However, on the side I was still building regular outfits with my GC/RIG/REI stuff, because I dunno I just never stay in one outfit for too long.
Now that I have donated my outfits for the charity, I can start wearing my "special" junk again.
Problem is I can't. It feels all wrong.
No matter what I put on, I don't like it. Even outfits I built prior to Gaia's milking fest. I can't bring myself to feel good dressing my avatar [essentially myself lolz] knowing some of my stuff was bought with a currency I now detest. There's nothing wrong with the stuff or the people that buy/wear them [for the most part] but I myself suddenly feel weird about the whole thing! /sob
So what do you guys think? Should I just ram my face into my monitor until the feeling goes away, orrrr.....?
tl;dr - I feel weird wearing my "fancy"stuff since some of it was bought with GC. HALP.
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Posted: Thu Oct 10, 2013 4:29 pm
OMGosh, Zol! Fate and I were JUST talking about this in the Crew Galley!
Oh.......how I MISS dressing up and making my avi pretty. I used to spend so much time (and gold) doing that. I can't even tell you! I was also secretly addicted to every kind of wig and makeup item on the face of the Gaian landscape. I still wear my Masquerade only because it was a gift from a very dear friend that's no longer in our Gaian ranks.
It was SO hard to give that up, but now that I have, I feel like a load has been lifted from my shoulders. All my pretty (and VERY expensive) items are gone now because I just couldn't support it if it was spawned from the Cash Shop. I, like yourself, was addicted to the mod poses and tig ol' bitties for my avi! LOL
But again, I couldn't support GC any longer. Though I've never bought GC, my gold was spent buying items that were purchased with GC by someone.
Now, I just refuse to put my gold back into Gaia at all unless it's to buy something for someone here. Now, every bit of my gold goes into this guild with the contests; prizes and gifts to others. And you know what? It feels a LOT better than playing dress-up. Sure, I miss my stuff and making my avi pretty, but at the end of it all, once that nostalgic moment passes, I wouldn't want to do things any other way than what I'm doing now.
I'm going to end up leaving Gaia at some point with exactly the same items and gold I had when I arrived: Nothing. But I have experiences and memories with this guild and incredible members like yourself that are 100% completely and utterly priceless.
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Posted: Thu Oct 10, 2013 4:40 pm
X3 /cuddles Yaaay~
I am actually super relieved it wasn't just me.
I just sit staring at my invo going "Ughhhhh..."
It makes me sad that I don't take enjoyment like I use to.
I think it's just because it gives me the ability to do something I could never do in rl: shop for stuff and come out of it looking and feeling good. Heh, call me childish, but I really think that's where the enjoyment comes from, for me. And a part of me wants to get rid of my stuff? But some of it I've had for years, I scrounged gold trying to get things. My mum or my sister helped me get things, etc. I am a sucker for nostalgia, so letting it all go makes me sad. There's been too much of that in my life, and Gaia was the only constant for me. Now this is out the window too. lol
I dunno. I'm sure one of two things will happen. Either I will give this and my mules to my sister, or I will donate it all to a charity and call it a day. But my fear is that that will happen much sooner then I had hoped.
/allmysad
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Posted: Thu Oct 10, 2013 4:51 pm
[Zol_the_Grim_Reaper] X3 /cuddles Yaaay~
I am actually super relieved it wasn't just me.
I just sit staring at my invo going "Ughhhhh..."
It makes me sad that I don't take enjoyment like I use to.
I think it's just because it gives me the ability to do something I could never do in rl: shop for stuff and come out of it looking and feeling good. Heh, call me childish, but I really think that's where the enjoyment comes from, for me. And a part of me wants to get rid of my stuff? But some of it I've had for years, I scrounged gold trying to get things. My mum or my sister helped me get things, etc. I am a sucker for nostalgia, so letting it all go makes me sad. There's been too much of that in my life, and Gaia was the only constant for me. Now this is out the window too. lol
I dunno. I'm sure one of two things will happen. Either I will give this and my mules to my sister, or I will donate it all to a charity and call it a day. But my fear is that that will happen much sooner then I had hoped.
/allmysad Awwwwww.....trust me. I totally GET it! I'm very much the exact same way, and selling off my items was pretty monumental for me. Along with selling them, I said goodbye to that part of me that had worked so hard to earn what I had. The most difficult was just a couple of weeks ago when I removed my Devil Tail and Nightmare Minis for the last time. Now they're gone. Like yourself, all of my gold and whatever items I have left will be given away to others until there's absolutely nothing left. But that's okay because the thing I used to love doing for hours sometimes (dressing up) no longer brings me any kind of enjoyment on Gaia. It's funny for someone that doesn't like to go shopping in RL used to LOVE shopping here! It was crazy ridiculous, but OH SO FUN!! I made my decision for the reasons you mentioned: I just didn't want to wait too long. I want to exit on MY terms in a manner that I feel good about at the end of it all. So until my final day on Gaia arrives, I'll don my little gold shop goodies along with my Masquerade, shoe clips and headband that were all gifts from friends that meant a lot to me. *another nostalgic sigh*
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Posted: Fri Oct 11, 2013 8:30 am
Most of my GC items were given to me by friends who had GC.
I actually never bought an item with GC before until recently when my friend and I became a victim of Flynn's Booty because the deal seemed way too tempting. emo
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Posted: Fri Oct 11, 2013 8:32 am
I should also add that every expensive item I've got (other than gifts) was bought with hard-earned gold.
I'm quite proud to wear these items. >w<
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Posted: Mon Oct 14, 2013 12:30 am
This might not mean anything to anyone else, but I think I hit a revelation.
A large part of why I have recently found it difficult to deal with my "shiny" objects as it were is because of people.
I am afraid that people won't believe how I feel about the site if I have GC items on.
That sounds even more childish, but I have never taken well to people judging me, on or off the net.
A lot of people [in the guild and out] have decided they are not going to wear GC items in protest, and that's all well and good.
But a large part of me is scared that I'll look like a hypocrite if I say I support the cause while prancing around in GC items.
Not that this really matters, but I just made a vaguely light hearted topic a little sad.
Its just, I don't want people to hate me for liking something, especially since I hate GC as much as they do. I just think the items are pretty. I can't not think that just because other people hate the stuff, but it makes wearing it impossible for me.
/sigh
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