So I already have self esteem issues and a constant feeling of never-ending loneliness, but this week has just been plan awful...
I've thought of killing myself four times this week and even knew what I was gonna do for two of the times... (overdosing on ibuprofen/crashing my car)
I feel like a burden on everyone and that no one really likes me... I have about two friends... Both of which aren't around all the time... I just cut myself.. Always had urges to.. but never did... but today was just enough to push me over the edge... They aren't bleeding, but they are a soft pink color... I know that may not count I guess but I just didn't want to get caught... I don't have the heart to tell my two friends I did that... I feel they will leave me... Or get mad... or something that is bad... I'm really upset.. I wish I didn't have to go anywhere tonight... and I wish my two friends weren't busy... I need them now more than ever....
Update:
So I finally decided to talk to my mom. I will be getting therapy within the next few months. Thank you all for your concern and advice.
It's A Girl Thing! ♥
A Family, A Home.
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