Release
My dad dropped what he was carrying and swept me up into his strong arms.
His breath smelled strongly of beer and cigarettes,
His body trembled.
I detested the scent from the moment he stepped through the door.
With his arms around my back
I never wanted him to leave.
We are forced together like two mismatching puzzle pieces.
I could feel my heart beating rapidly
Chasing away anything that could get in my path.
As I looked around me I knew,
There was no other place I wanted to be.
The light shone through the trees, with a brilliant subtleness
As I sat in silence, every memory I've lived swam to the surface
Like a stubborn salmon fighting the waterfall.
I'd wake up to it, go to school, come home, and fall asleep
Several hours later-after many screams of frustration-slight jumps of fear, loud cursing
(both in anger and triumph) and shocked silence,
I had made it to the end.
With each new set of clothes I was a different person
As the night carried on,
The crowds got massive.
Insane and obnoxious, a thousand people roaring all around me.
All i could hear was my voice, then I saw him.
We exchanged a knowing look of "this is crazy".
I felt suffocated just being there
We snapped photos,
Forever in each other's memory.
I never thought I would cry.
The phone echoed in my ears
When he spoke
I didn't listen.
I could hear the whiskey in his voice,
Telling me of the road built by sand,
And the sea, brilliant blue.
The numbness comes again.
Cold dreary gray concrete offers no comfort.
Just in sight, I see the ocean.
Pulling my feet through the blistering sand
I smell the salty air before plunging into
The ocean's calm serenity.
Slowly it envelopes me,
Carrying me to relaxation.
My dad dropped what he was carrying and swept me up into his strong arms.
His breath smelled strongly of beer and cigarettes,
His body trembled.
I detested the scent from the moment he stepped through the door.
With his arms around my back
I never wanted him to leave.
We are forced together like two mismatching puzzle pieces.
I could feel my heart beating rapidly
Chasing away anything that could get in my path.
As I looked around me I knew,
There was no other place I wanted to be.
The light shone through the trees, with a brilliant subtleness
As I sat in silence, every memory I've lived swam to the surface
Like a stubborn salmon fighting the waterfall.
I'd wake up to it, go to school, come home, and fall asleep
Several hours later-after many screams of frustration-slight jumps of fear, loud cursing
(both in anger and triumph) and shocked silence,
I had made it to the end.
With each new set of clothes I was a different person
As the night carried on,
The crowds got massive.
Insane and obnoxious, a thousand people roaring all around me.
All i could hear was my voice, then I saw him.
We exchanged a knowing look of "this is crazy".
I felt suffocated just being there
We snapped photos,
Forever in each other's memory.
I never thought I would cry.
The phone echoed in my ears
When he spoke
I didn't listen.
I could hear the whiskey in his voice,
Telling me of the road built by sand,
And the sea, brilliant blue.
The numbness comes again.
Cold dreary gray concrete offers no comfort.
Just in sight, I see the ocean.
Pulling my feet through the blistering sand
I smell the salty air before plunging into
The ocean's calm serenity.
Slowly it envelopes me,
Carrying me to relaxation.