Feeling stressed...

[Forever_Rose09]

I've been up at night recently because I'm freaking out. In the next few months I become a freshman in high school. I'm so worried about people not liking me and making my rep a good one that it suddenly hit me that I don't really know who I am at all. I don't know what kind of person I am.
All my life I've grown up with 3 best friends. No one else ever liked us; we were the little misfit group. I knew why people didn't like me. My mom would dress me all the time in mismatching clothes, making sure that I wouldn't get cold, making sure that my shirt was always tucked in, making sure that my hair was tied back properly so it wouldn't get in my eyes. I had to wear vests and sweatpants and t-shirts all the time, but I didn't mind for some reason. I was terrible with talking to others; only my best friends would understand. People grew distant from me while I grew distant from them. I was the loner in the classes i didn't have with my friends. In grade six, my friends finally opened my eyes. I realized why people didn't like me, and why I thought they liked me. People often took advantage of my kindness, using my things and taking them and I would be okay with it. I changed. I have much better social skills and sense of style now but I feel so regretful. Rumors were spread about me, and I can't tell my crush how I feel. I'm trained right now to make a good reputation in high school but i feel like I only changed because of what other people thought of me. And I shouldn't have. But why did I? I can't wrap my head around the whole thing. Was it even the right thing for me to do? Or should I just not have cared from the beginning? I'm not sure if changing myself was the right thing to do, or if my mind is just telling me that it was.  

[o0Roxy0o]

Forever_Rose09

It's very normal to be a bit stressed out about high school.
I think I would be correct in saying that most teenagers,
specially girls, want to have a good reputation and want
others to like them. But the truth is, you shouldn't care what
others think about you. Rather find people who love you for
you, even if it's not many, at least you know you're real.


You'll find the once you leave high school, the reputation
you once had, means nothing. Being true to yourself and
to others is what matters most and although it may take
some people a long time to realize that being real is such
a great quality in oneself or in a friend, it is always discovered
later in life and that'll get you much further in life than being
what people wanted you to be in high school.


So best of luck as you face high school and I hope you'll
manage to stay true to yourself and not forget who you are
just to please others. I know for fact that if you keep being
yourself, you'll easily attract some loyal, caring, faithful and
lasting friends.
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