So I've been with my boyfriend for a few months now, and in that time I've found out everything about him. So I don't mind about his past, and I don't mind that he's attempted suicide before and he used to self harm. I can understand why he did that, but he still has emotional scars and he's really got some self esteem issues. He doesn't think that he deserves me and he thinks he's ugly and hates a lot about himself. The way I see it he puts me on a pedestal and looks up at me as though I'm perfect and down on himself. Last night him being depressed upset me too because he brought up the issue of his weight. He's a little underweight and skinny, but I don't care, to me he is beautiful and it hurts that he can't see it, however, he was saying how it was ugly and that brought my self esteem down a bit because I'm underweight. Sometimes you can see my bones and I don't really like my figure, the only parts of me with some meat on them are my legs, cheeks, butt and boobs. I'm not seriously underweight but I have been called anorexic (even though I'm not!) and even a friend once brought it up because she was concerned. I was eating healthily but I just have a fast metabolism, same as him. So I'm quite weight conscious and I've been eating a lot more in the last 2 years and thankfully put on some weight. Sometimes, just the things he says when he's depressed can really bring me down. So last night I just stopped talking to him and he sent me this afterwards:
"i'm sorry for being a self hating jerk last night..........i'm normaly better at hiding my self hate.....not from you but everyone...............but anyway i'm sorry i made you cry..........and if you hate me i understand.....not like it'd be the first time someone left coz i hate myself"
Can someone please help? I just want to make him feel a bit happier about himself. I already have a little bit but I really want him to be happy with himself. Thanks for reading.
"i'm sorry for being a self hating jerk last night..........i'm normaly better at hiding my self hate.....not from you but everyone...............but anyway i'm sorry i made you cry..........and if you hate me i understand.....not like it'd be the first time someone left coz i hate myself"
Can someone please help? I just want to make him feel a bit happier about himself. I already have a little bit but I really want him to be happy with himself. Thanks for reading.