You are good enough, you are in control, you are amazing.

[Tandahda]

*Blows in on a cold northern wind*

So, I've been away for a while, for about the past year I've been holding at 160-178 lbs. But it's not been a steady hold. My weight fluctuates wildly between my mood and life (which is pretty hectic). I've had some serious mental problems in the past four months and the one thing that I've been doing consistently is OVEREATING. Like. Every night. Like. I don't know how I'm not gaining a *lot* of weight, but I haven't. I'm creeping up to 180 (178.2 lbs is the highest I've been I think) but I'm pretty sure it's mostly bloating from the last few nights.

I'm a vegetarian (on and off vegan is what I am but I'm too ashamed to say that in many spaces). I also do stilting, hooping, staff work, and contact juggling. Some of those I do together. : P

I have my bike and plan to be riding it most places come Monday.

Start weight: 233 lbs. (Seriously!)
Current weight: 178.2 lbs.
Goal weight: 155 lbs.

There are a few things I can do to help myself.

One: Eating happens at the table. No more of this, snacking and eating on the couch thing. ._.
Two: I'm going on a mild detox. Nothing special, but I am going to limit my dairy, sugar and salt.

For calorie counting. (I'm doing that again. My attempts to just feed myself without the counting hasn't gone well. I haven't really gained weight, but I definitely stopped losing when I stopped counting.) Hem. For calories, I'm mostly just looking to not go above 1800 on days I don't exercise, and not above 2000 on days I do.

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I decided to give myself some rewards. I'm going to award them based on 2 weeks maintaining a weight or losing. None of this losing weight, rewarding self and gaining back crud. : P Realistically, I'm going to update this list probably once a month as I find pretty things that I'd like more or that would look better. But it's a fun exercise. : )

Upon reaching 169 and holding that for 2 weeks.
I shall award myself the pink moustache socks. : )


Upon reaching 160 and holding that for 2 weeks.
I shall award myself these pants.


Upon reaching 155 and holding that for 2 weeks
I shall award myself this shirt.


If I get to 150 and hold that for 3 weeks, I will award myself these:


I've got the ultimate goal, but I'm not sure I can do that. We'll see.

And if I get to 145 and hold that for a month (Which might not be until next year or more) I shall get myself this skirt. Because hoo boy I'll deserve it!
 

[Tandahda]

Date: April 22, 2011
Day: 1
Weight: 178.2

Breakfast:
Orange juice, 100 cal
Tea
Two eggs and a piece of toast w/margarine: 290 cal
Lunch:
Soup, 250 cal
Toast, 100 cal (unbuttered)
Coconut milk 70 cal
Supper:
Two mini croissants 300 cal
1 1/2 pita 225 cal
1/3 cup babaghanoush 150 cal
Grapes 100 cal
Santa cruz soda 135 cal
Snacks:

Total In: 1780 cal

Exercise:
Holding a 5 year old on back and carrying her for two and a bit hours. 300 cal

Total Out: 300 cal

Notes:
Net 1480 cal? Bad bad bad. I was hungry that day.

 

[Tandahda]

Date: April 23, 2011
Day: 2
Weight: N/A

Breakfast:
Toast w/ babaghanoush 150 cal
Coffee w/ Soy milk 100 cal (Multiple)
Lunch:
3 slices homemade pizza 650 cal
Supper:
Pasta 850 cal
Snacks:
Chocolates 150 cal
Toast w/ margarine 125 cal.
Total In: 2025 cal

Exercise:
1 hr yard work 250 cal
45 min stilting 150 cal
Total Out: 400 cal

Notes:
Net 1625? I feel like I ate so much. I must be overestimating. ._. Bleh. I keep records while at my parents' place. We'll see on Monday how I did. Here's hoping for a loss.

 

[Tandahda]

Date: April 24, 2011
Day: 3
Weight: N/A

Breakfast:
Waffles w/ margarine and syrup 350 cal
Coffee with soymilk 50 cal
Lunch:
White basmati rice w/ ground round, mushrooms and onions 550 cal
Slices of cheese 100 cal
Waffle 100 cal
Supper:
Rice 250 cal
Pasta 600 cal
Snacks:
Ceral 180 cal
Granola 400 cal
Total In: 2680 cal

Exercise: 1.5 hrs vacuuming for mom 250 cal

Total Out: 250 cal

Notes:
PSHFHT. And here I went last night. Eating like I did before. : P Bleh. I didn't eat enough over the weekend anyway. I still saw a loss today. I'll be fine.

 

[Tandahda]

Date: April 25th 2011
Day: 4
Weight: 174.0!

Breakfast:
Orange, mango, banana smoothie w/ chard and hemp hearts. 350 cal
Lunch:
Hard boiled egg 70 cal
PBJ sammich 350 cal
Yogurt 100 cal
Banana 100 cal
Sticks and twigs 100 cal
Supper:
Quinoa black bean mango salad 600 cal
Snacks:
Total In: 1670 cal

Exercise:
Most intense yoga ever. 400 cal
15 min walk 70 cal
Total Out: 470 cal

Notes:
Woop woop! I go to register for yoga today. : ) I know that the loss I had wasn't all weight, most of it was bloating and water I'm sure, but it feels so good to see it on the screen.

Yoga was OMG. The hardest yoga ever! So tired. SOOO TIRED. *dead*

Another day with very few calories. And yet, I wasn't hungry through a lot of it.

 

[Tandahda]

Date: April 26, 2011
Day: 5
Weight: N/A

Breakfast:
Smoothie 400 cal
Lunch:
Piza bagel w/ cream cheese 550 cal
Quinoa salad: 200 cal
Supper:
Natural select rice, 700 cal
Snacks:

Total In: 1850 cal

Exercise: Not much.

Total Out: None.

Notes:
OMG. I'm so sore from yoga that I did very little today. I was very very depressed today, but a shitty dinner and a nice nap fixed it. : )

 

[Tandahda]

Date: April 27, 2011
Day: 6
Weight: 172.0

Breakfast:
Orange juice 75 cal
Egg 100 cal
Toast w/ margarine 150 cal
Lunch:
Salad 150 cal
Sammich 450 cal
Supper:
3 chocolate eggs 340 cal (bigger ones)
Some 'no chicken' noodle soup (I gave most to Peter) 200 cal
Popcorn 300 cal
Rice crispies cereal w/ soymilk 280 cal
Snacks:
Juice to drown an elephant 400 cal

Total In: 2545 cal

Exercise: None. Sick.

Total Out: None.

Notes:
Funny how fast the weight melts off when you're not eating upwards of 3000 calories a day. ._. I'm fairly certain that my start weight was close to 175 lbs and not 178, I took that heavy weight pretty much right after a salty oily nasty food binge and so I was probably hoarding water like no one's business.

 

[Tandahda]

Date: April 28th 2011
Day: 7
Weight: N/A

Breakfast:
Toast w/ margarine 150 cal
Fruit salad 300 cal
Lunch:
Muffin 400 cal
Supper:
3 slices pizza 900 cal
gingerale 150 cal
Snacks:
Cheese sammich grilled 400 cal
Total In: 2300 cal

Exercise: None. Sick as a dog.

Total Out: None.

Notes:
I'm still pretty sick. But I'm hoping I can get up to feeling good enough to go to yoga tonight. Here's hoping. *Crosses fingers* I have three god damned exams to do before 1pm and I haven't studied much.

Buh. Don't sick people eat *less*?

 

[Tandahda]

Date: April 29
Day: 8
Weight: N/A

Breakfast:
Orange juice 200 cal
Lunch:
2 bowls granola 1000 cal
Supper:
2 bowls mushroom couscous 725 cal
Snacks:

Total In: 1925 cal

Exercise: Not much. Still sick Stretching.

Total Out: Stretching. Not many calories.

Notes:
I'm finally getting better but hoo boy I was not doing well earlier. I'm glad that I'm feeling coherently better, if not physically better. ._.

 

[Tandahda]

Date: April 30, 2011
Day: 9
Weight: N/A

Breakfast:
Orange juice 100 cal
Toast w/ peanut butter 200 cal
Lunch:
Handful nuts 150 cal
Supper:
Noodles of wonder. 400 cal
Snacks:

Total In: 850 cal

Exercise: 2 hrs stilting, 300 cal. 1 hr hooping 150 cal

Total Out: 450 cal

Notes:
No appetite. Sick. So much performing.

 

[Tandahda]

Date: May 1rst 2011
Day:10
Weight: 171 lbs

Breakfast:
Granola w/soymilk 400 cal
Lunch:
Chocolate 200 cal
Whole grain tortilla chips 500 cal
Supper:
Chicken noodle soup 250 cal
Chocolate 150 cal
Snacks:
Orange juice 300 cal

Total In: 1800 cal

Exercise: None. Uaghehg. This is getting ridiculous.

Total Out: None

Notes:
Tired of being sick now.

 

[Tandahda]

Date: May 4th
Day: 13
Weight: 169.8

Breakfast:
Smoothie 350 cal
Lunch:
2 hard boiled eggs 140 cal
Yogurt 110 cal
Sammich 400 cal
Supper:
Snacks:

Total In:

Exercise:
Walk to work. Calories TBA

Total Out:

Notes:

 

[Tandahda]

Date: May 9th, 2011
Day: Day 18
Weight: 168.0

Breakfast:
Pancake 250 cal
Coffee 15 cal
Orange juice 100 cal
Lunch:
Cliff bar 350 cal
Two eggs 140 cal
Yogurt 120 cal
Supper:
Snacks:

Total In: 975 cal

Exercise:
Bike to work 100 cal

Total Out: 100 cal

Notes:
I'm still sick. That means my appetite's still off the wall... which is kind of sad, but nothing to be done about it.