Every one of my poems will be posted in here.

[iiEatCandii]

15. See no fear, Hear no cries, Speak no lies

i would love to write a poem thats all gooey and sappy,
id love to write a poem thats finally happy,
but the truth is that its just not how i feel,
and im not fake, i have to write about things that are real.
my true feelings for a guy or an important event,
whether its a letter to someone or i just need to vent.
now dont get me twisted,
like a buttery crescent biscuit,
I want to feel glad,
But I cant when im sad,
Cus I went through so much stuff,
Ive never felt what its like to be loved

 

[iiEatCandii]

16. Regrettably

My days still filled with sorrow and my nights still filled with tears
I thought I could get over it faster, hell, its been so many years
Since I first laid eyes on his handsome face
Looking back I would give anything to steer clear of that place
I don’t want to feel this way for him, im tired
If my feelings were a piece of paper, without hesitation, I would light them on fire
I would burn them to ashes to rid myself of this indescribable pain
I just want to dance in the pouring rain

 

[iiEatCandii]

17. Never You

Every time the phone rings,
I hope it’s you,
Calling to say “I love you too.”
But it’s never you.

Every time there’s a knock at the door,
I hope it’s you,
Coming over to say “I love you too.”
But it’s never you.

When I walk down the street,
I wait for you,
Hope that you will catch my arm and kiss me,
But you never do.

My friends say “stop waiting.”
I wonder if they’re right.
But at night,
I see you in my dreams,
And you stop me on the street,
Turn me around and kiss me,
Then you say “I love you too.”

 

[iiEatCandii]

18. Players

Who the hell do you think I am?
A good little girl that will follow you like a lamb?
Sorry boy but your not bo peep
So get that out your ******** head you mutha *Bleeeeeeeeeeeeeep*
You are not my master and no I don’t wanna kiss
Yes I ignored your call and no you wont be missed
Did I get that text last night why yes I did
Why didn’t I replied HA! Boy your just a kid,
But get the ******** out my face before I make you back the hell up
Think your bigger and badder? Ha I don’t give a ******** am not intimidated by your fat and your “bad boy” stare
Ill punch that look right off your face and not even care
What the hell you think about being beat down by a girl
Ill have your a** in the air and your vision in a swirl
Tell me what you think about me again? How pretty am I now?
Do I think your hot? b***h please- you look like a cow.
No I don’t want to see your car and I don’t want to see your ******** no I don’t want to dance with you or go back to your place.
Lets get this straight-your done with your games
Im sure you couldn’t even remember half the names
Of all the girls you said your one of a kind too.
Really, I don’t wanna hear it cause theres nothing you can do
To make me think that you give a s**t about me
So get the ******** out my face boy and leave me be
Touch my arm again and ill be forced to beat your a**
And believe me boy ill have you running away from me so fast
Youll make a buzzing sound as you fly on by
And youll run home to mommy for a well deserved cry

 

[iiEatCandii]

19. That Day

I was used to being alone,
Used to hiding all the pain,
Because rarely was I ever shown,
The acceptance I was shown that day.

I knew that you didn’t like me,
I knew you could care less,
I knew you just wanted to be free,
And I knew you wanted to start fresh.

But you put that all aside,
And humored me that best you could,
I want you to know that when you left I cried,
And missed you more that I thought I would.

 

[iiEatCandii]

20. Darkness

The darkness is rising,
No longer hiding.
Time to let them know,
That they all blow,
I’m done with all the teasing,
Done with the reasoning,
They will never get it.
They just don’t give a s**t,
To them it’s a game,
Because it’s me it shames.
They do not get how it hurts me.
How much it scares me to be,
The person I am.

 

[iiEatCandii]

21. Oh no.

The troubles before
Well here they go again
I coulda sworn I thought of you as just a friend
I have someone who I love with all my broken heart
But here I go again even though I don’t want to start
My stupid heart cries when I see you with her
I just want to know what the hell is the cure
How do I mend my stupid heart and get over you
How am I expected to stop thinking about you when that’s all I ever do?

 

[iiEatCandii]

22. Unwanted

The tears start to arise
I swear I will not succumb
I will fight them back into my eyes
And away from the thoughts ill run
I will not sink deep back into my old ways
He cannot make the feelings resurface
And I wish he’d just make the smiles stay
Instead of bringing up the very things that hurt us
I close my eyes and take deep breathes
he can see the surface but not the rest
he could never imagine the pain
but he knows how to keep it away.
i could never describe the way i felt back then,
the pain was 100 on a scale of one to ten
the things I felt I truly abhor
I thought I got rid of them the last time he walked out my door
But I can only do so much to hold them at bay

 

[iiEatCandii]

23. Voices

Sitting here alone in a cold dark room,
Waiting, wishing I could talk to you,
But you’ve moved on and moved away too,
People say I should do the same,
But all I can think about is your name,
And all those silly games we used to play,
And how we used to talk all the time,
I can hear your voice in my mind,
Telling me not to jump,
Not to cry,
Not to cut myself one more time.
You should know that in the past,
I once dreamt of a true romance,
Where you and I could be a little more,
But then my dream faded,
And all the things I once loved,
I found that I know hated.
I need you in my life,
And for you I’m willing to fight.

 

[iiEatCandii]

24. What a B***h

You ask me why I cant be happy
You ask me why im so down
you ask me to help you get my crush
then ask why I wear a frown
you make no sence to me
when you ask me why its so hard to be
like the other girls that wear a smile all the time
im sorry I cant be a mime
I show how I feel,
My emotions are not on a reel,
They cant be reeled back,
In,Sorry if my mask is cracked
Actually im not.

 

[iiEatCandii]

A. your heart gides mine through the perils of the night
you take my hand and banish my fright
your sweet voice helps ease the pain
after ive sliced across my purple vein.