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Ok, so let me start from the beginning. This week I started the training to become a securityguard, it started well. But on wednesday, when we had first aid, I began to feel nauteous and had to lay down. I pulled out through the day, but my condition got worse on the same evening. So I called a local health info center, and after telling my symptoms, they told me, that I was suffering from a nasty panic attack, triggered by anxiety and emotional stress. Since then, to this moment, I've been having these slight breathing difficulties, having to take a deeper breath to stabilize myself. All the symptoms give me the conclusion, that I have basically gone through a nervous breakdown. It's no wonder, why it all now began to collapse on me. I've had a rough winter. My long unemployment, my parents divorcing, having to support and comfort my mom to get through the worst stage while staying strong myself without dealing with my own mourning. On top of that, stressing out with jobhunting, school applying and taking care of my brothers house while he's in Thailand. You all can imagine, how much stress that builds up... God knows how many times I've been crying now. But the fact is, that I have to get myself into psychiatrist treatment, perhaps psychotherapy and visiting a psychologist, all that stuff, so that I could get myself fixed.
And because I trust you people, whom I've known since '04, I wanted to share these thoughts with you, because it makes me feel better and more reliefed.
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Posted: Sat Apr 04, 2009 9:55 pm
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Posted: Sun Apr 05, 2009 10:24 am
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Posted: Sun Apr 05, 2009 9:22 pm
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Posted: Thu Apr 09, 2009 9:34 pm
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Posted: Mon May 18, 2009 7:31 am
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Jusu Kilappa Ok, so let me start from the beginning. This week I started the training to become a securityguard, it started well. But on wednesday, when we had first aid, I began to feel nauteous and had to lay down. I pulled out through the day, but my condition got worse on the same evening. So I called a local health info center, and after telling my symptoms, they told me, that I was suffering from a nasty panic attack, triggered by anxiety and emotional stress. Since then, to this moment, I've been having these slight breathing difficulties, having to take a deeper breath to stabilize myself. All the symptoms give me the conclusion, that I have basically gone through a nervous breakdown. It's no wonder, why it all now began to collapse on me. I've had a rough winter. My long unemployment, my parents divorcing, having to support and comfort my mom to get through the worst stage while staying strong myself without dealing with my own mourning. On top of that, stressing out with jobhunting, school applying and taking care of my brothers house while he's in Thailand. You all can imagine, how much stress that builds up... God knows how many times I've been crying now. But the fact is, that I have to get myself into psychiatrist treatment, perhaps psychotherapy and visiting a psychologist, all that stuff, so that I could get myself fixed. And because I trust you people, whom I've known since '04, I wanted to share these thoughts with you, because it makes me feel better and more reliefed.
-PounceCuddles- My ninja brother. ): It's been a long time, but know I'm always here for you to rant or talk to or anything! I luffooo ^____________^
Try and take out an hour each day to just do your own thing, read, meditate, have a coffee. Something that can become your own thing. NO THINKING ABOUT BAD SHIZ D<
What I do is I allocate a time that I can worry/stress. Like from 4:30 - 5pm Ill allow myself to stress about everything thats going on in that day/my life. Try it! It really works. <3
insanityleak@hotmail.com Add me to msn if joo need? <33333!~
heart Zzapy~
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