let's go for fourty c:

[save me octopus]

^^ that is long old, but you can see my... physique. may that picture be the thing that keeps me going strong, to never ever look like that again. mad

everyday (or as often as possible) i am going to track the food i eat, and my work out schedual.

my first goal by october 2008 is 170, which is about 40 pounds to lose. starting tomorrow, i must lose exactly 1.8 pounds a week to reach my goal, that is 157 days. my drive to lose weight has always been there, i hate being the 'fat' friend. but okay, i want to change. after the three or so years of always making fake diets, this time, i think i am ready to commit. and i figure the longer it takes to take off the weight, the longer it will be permanent. plus, i don't want to ******** up my skin more than i already have.

goals!:
over all - lose 80 pounds by hopefully next summer.
get more self confidence, because i really have none.
to actually be able to run a mile ><
get more organized
get more healthy
get healthier skin
a better BMI
boy ?


weigh in!:
may 15:
june 1:
june 15:
july 1:
july 15:
august 1:
august 15:
september 1:
september 15:
october 1: (goal = 170)
october 15:
november 1:
november 15:
december 1:
december 15:
january 1:
january 15:
febuary 1:
febuary 15:
march 1:
march 15:
april 1:
april 15:
may 1:
may 15:
june 1:
june 15:
july 1: (goal = 130 or less)  

[alwyscrying240]

Good luck on your journey!

But, truthfully, I think you look beautiful, and don't think you need to lose80 pounds. I understand that you dont want to be the "Fat" friend anymore (I feel the same way about me), but that doesnt mean you have to have the same body as your friends. Curves are a wonderful thing. You dont have to be a size 5 to be happy. =]