theres this boy, and im going to leave him anonomous.
i've known him since as long as i can remember, we went to the same primary school.
but its only since about october-ish that he became so much more to me..
we had been hanging out for a while in 2007, then in october we just really got talking.
one thing i love about guys is when they are deeper than you thought they were, and they really do have so many feelings but never show them to anyone but you.
i trust him with all my heart, and he trusts me a fair bit.
it beats me why im so in love with him.
every spare moment i have, i just sit there and think about him.
thing is, there's a fat chance he feels the same way about me in return.
he went through a phase where he wouldnt talk to me for about 2 weeks. in that time i hooked up with a pretty decent lad, but first thing he said to me in two weeks was "i heard about the hook up, congratulations"
im not sure if that means something.
aparently not..
he means the world to me, and always will, but i fear he will never return my feelings. its kinda sad really, i wait for him to come online every night, otherwise i would just go bed.
it makes me feel like a stalker, but im not, i just want every chance i can get of speaking to him.
all i want to do is be with him. but i just cant ask him in fear of rejection.
what do i do?
oh, and for those who read this, you must be amazing to put up with me rambling on like this for so long. its so apreciated.
i've known him since as long as i can remember, we went to the same primary school.
but its only since about october-ish that he became so much more to me..
we had been hanging out for a while in 2007, then in october we just really got talking.
one thing i love about guys is when they are deeper than you thought they were, and they really do have so many feelings but never show them to anyone but you.
i trust him with all my heart, and he trusts me a fair bit.
it beats me why im so in love with him.
every spare moment i have, i just sit there and think about him.
thing is, there's a fat chance he feels the same way about me in return.
he went through a phase where he wouldnt talk to me for about 2 weeks. in that time i hooked up with a pretty decent lad, but first thing he said to me in two weeks was "i heard about the hook up, congratulations"
im not sure if that means something.
aparently not..
he means the world to me, and always will, but i fear he will never return my feelings. its kinda sad really, i wait for him to come online every night, otherwise i would just go bed.
it makes me feel like a stalker, but im not, i just want every chance i can get of speaking to him.
all i want to do is be with him. but i just cant ask him in fear of rejection.
what do i do?
oh, and for those who read this, you must be amazing to put up with me rambling on like this for so long. its so apreciated.
xxxx
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