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(Aww, you ruined my reply with your edits, HK. Ah well.)
"I know you have, Sirius, and I learned my own lessons. I've been stabbed in the back too many times to find trust so easily," Remus said slowly. "I don't like being lied to, even over trivial things likes this thing with Kathryn. It isn't a big deal, you know, she's a teenager and she can handle herself well enough."
He sighed, "This isn't about Kathryn, okay; this is about being honest with each other about everything, even the menial things and whether or not we can trust each other to do that, but - I don't know right now."
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"How can we trust each other when everytime something goes wrong we're going to fear that the other one will drag something up from the past?" Sirius hissed.
"I'm just waiting for the day when you bring up the Incident again and throw it in my face. Even though we promised we wouldn't." Sirius stood up and turned towards the bed post, resting his head against the cool wood.
"I can only remember the big things, and all of the bad stuff Remus. I'm still slowly getting back my good memories from Azkaban. Everytime I do something wrong or screw up even slightly I remember everything that could be related to it and thrown in my face. And that scares me, because I don't know what will set you off any more." He turned and looked at Remus.
"And then you know, maybe if you didn't say how I lied about important things then, we would've gotten over the whole I lied to you about Kathryn part because you made it seem important that no student should see us in the throes of almighty passion! And we would be making stupid promises of no more lies except for the 'I promise you, you don't look fat in that Moony' type! And the 'We're going to this place' when really we're going to a suprise party type of lies!" Sirius started pacing back and forth trying to control himself and to get the warring voices out of his mind.
"If everything I'm going to be reminded about from my past is going to be things I did wrong, or things that went wrong, then I have to wonder why I even bothered coming back. Why did I do it? Harry survived to 17 without me, and as much as I hate to admit it, he can continue surviving, I was never that important in his life. And you..." Sirius stopped and stared at the wall ahead of him.
"Maybe I thought you needed me, as much as I remembered needing you, and as much as I feel like I need you now. But you can't trust me, and you obviously have things you would like to talk about, but you won't talk to me. And you bring up things that I've been fighting to cover with new memories and old good memories...Was I wrong when they asked me why I was fighting to get back to life Remus? Have you ever really needed me? Would you have gone on fine, as Harry has, without me?"
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Sirius Black-Snuffles Captain
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Posted: Tue Jan 10, 2006 4:11 pm
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Posted: Tue Jan 10, 2006 4:19 pm
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Sirius Black-Snuffles Captain
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Posted: Tue Jan 10, 2006 5:13 pm
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Posted: Wed Jan 11, 2006 4:11 am
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Sirius Black-Snuffles Captain
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Posted: Wed Jan 11, 2006 4:56 am
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Posted: Wed Jan 11, 2006 1:46 pm
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"Me? I don't cry..." Sirius muttered, as he pulled back slightly to wipe his eyes.He sighed and shook his head before putting his arms back around Remus.
"And it's not you really. It's..." he stopped and closed his eyes taking a deep breath and resting his forehead on Remus'. He opened his eyes and gently wiped one of Remus' tears away with his thumb.
"I...I love you Remus. And I will no matter how many times we fight, lie, scream, kick, bite, punch, disown, and other general bad things. But just like I promised you no more lies, can you promise me that you won't throw all the stupid mistakes I made back in all those other past lives at my face when I screw up again? It hurts me to think that I'm not the only one who can only remember the bad times with a few random good times with fuzzy details thrown into the mix. And all anybody talks about is the war and the horrible events leading up to and during it." He traced Remus' face absently with his thumb, smiling, lost in his own thoughts as memories slowly trickled in.
(what happened to bemuse? Arse is a fun word, but bleedingly is better *ducks and runs for cover*)
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Posted: Wed Jan 11, 2006 3:00 pm
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Posted: Wed Jan 11, 2006 5:30 pm
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Posted: Fri Jan 13, 2006 12:31 pm
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Posted: Fri Jan 13, 2006 1:20 pm
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Posted: Fri Jan 13, 2006 5:46 pm
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