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Posted: Sat Feb 02, 2013 1:27 pm
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((OOC: Chiyou/Nezumi))
kawaita tsumori ame ga tsuzunaku katari kakeru namida wa seijaku ni...samayou yoru ga akeru
It was easy, to do whatever Kai told him to do. Hideki did as instructed, and breathed deeply and slowly, calming down as if he'd just been given a mild sedative.
"It's ok. I'm fine, now." he smiled, his arm not moving from the place that it had found around the guitarist's waist.
"Your fingers?" he tilted his head up, looking at the only one in this room his eyes would seemingly allow him to see.
"Please be careful with your fingers, Kai. I don't want you to hurt...and your fingers are very important." the kid frowned, obviously concerned. Chiyou could give less of a damn about his own hands, still damaged from the broken coffee pot. They didn't hurt that bad anymore, anyway.
"I'm fine, I'm fine..." Nezumi grinned at Nakai...seeming to be okay, but, honestly, how could anyone be okay after going through everything he had in the last few minutes?
"Are you and Chiyou-kun alright?" the manager asked the guitarist, then glanced around the room trying to spot Michi...hoping to go ahead and cover all his bases at once so that he could....what? What was he gonna do? Eat? Drink? Dance? Go home and try to sleep off the utter shock of the evening? Hell...he didn't know. Right now...he'd probably go with whatever anyone suggested.
karada o tsutau ame ni furueru awai omoi guren no yuuwaku ni...samayou yoru ga akeru
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Posted: Sat Feb 02, 2013 1:44 pm
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Posted: Sat Feb 02, 2013 2:21 pm
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"It wasn't an act... that... that wasn't..." for a long moment, Azriel just sat there, frozen. He had been warm and gentle at night, curling against Hiroki out of a need for the security that the man's presence gave him. But it wasn't love... was it? "I... Maybe not everything was an act... The day you took me out to the store and we bought the blankets and rugs and had dessert in a little cafe... that wasn't an act... but I..." Katsu shook his head, staring at the man only a few feet away. "The fear... the fear I showed you was an act. I used Izo, a fake fear of the spider, to pull you closer so you wouldn't leave me. I showed you pain in the first days so you would treasure the kindness later. And then someone tried to kill you..." Carefully, Azriel rose to his knees and crawled across the floor until he was right in front of Hiroki. He gently removed the glasses from the man's face, looking into the man's red stinging eyes. "It became more than my job. Yes I had a choice... I could have picked someone else. There were any number of men I could have chosen when Izo asked me who I wanted... but I chose you. I chose you and you were mine and then someone tried to take you away." Katsu shook his head, gently trying to wipe away the older man's tears. "I wanted you here... I didn't want you to be taken away... Then... today... I don't know, Asato-kun... I just... Maybe I was afraid you'd leave because of my father... maybe I was afraid you'd leave because of my mother... I wanted to know... to be honest... to have you see everything I am and why I scream and... and I was so fiercely loyal to the spider. Could you love me without the drugs? I had to know, Asato-kun." Thin arms went around Hiroki's shoulders then, pulling himself against the elephant of Ohayou and holding tight. He was terribly drunk, and it was starting to make him feel bad... his head starting to hurt and stomach starting to turn. "I didn't mean to hurt you..." the bat whispered. Of course he hadn't meant physically... but emotionally. "I want to love you... I want to show you that I can change... leave the monster behind... see the world with you... You're not a fool. You were never a fool. I just played you for one..." Pulling back, Azriel looked into Hiroki's eyes once more. "I'll become better than him and I'll fix what he's done, but I don't think I could do it without you. I want to be gentle for you... To be honest and caring and happy... with you. No more drugs, I swear. The ones in your system will run out in a few days anyway... and I'll take it out. The shock. I'll have him take it out, I promise, just please... please don't hate me, Asato-kun..." Katsumi closed his eyes, leaning forward to brush his lips against Hiroki's own. "Don't abandon me too..." he whispered before claiming a soft gentle kiss.
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Posted: Sat Feb 02, 2013 3:00 pm
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Posted: Sat Feb 02, 2013 5:39 pm
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"Why?" Azriel smiled ever so slightly, an expression that was barely even visible. "Izo wanted it to be Izzy Lucky in the beginning, you know... But he wanted, wants, Ohayou and thought it might negatively impact my brother... So he asked me to choose my pet. I thought about Yamada Haru... but it would disrupt Shou... and I thought about Ishihara You but... well... he's off limits... and I thought about Takagi Yuuji but that also might have impacted Narcissus. Then... I thought of the one person standing in Izo's way... the next person who would be in line for him to possibly get rid of... permanently. I thought of you, Asato-kun." Gently, Katsumi ran his fingers over Hiroki's cheeks and brow in a soothing manner. "So I convinced Izo to let me spirit you away... to let you be mine... and I read you and saw how much you needed someone. How alone you felt." Azriel pressed his lips to those of the megane-clad man once more, letting the kiss linger for a few moments. "No more then..." he whispered softly. "Let's... let's get your cherries and some hot tea and just go upstairs, ne? I still feel so cold..." of course the young man's hair was still soaking wet, his lips still tinted blue. "You can hold me and we... we can talk about nicer things, ne? I can get undrunk and you can stop crying and I'll smile for you, Asato-kun. I..." that very slight smile disappeared as Katsu pondered the next few days. "I'll be gone soon and you won't see me for a while, you know? Maybe... maybe it'll be good, ne? You can find out... think about if... if you want to try to love me. If you want to give me a second chance... without a head muddled by drugs or my own manipulative words..."
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Posted: Sat Feb 02, 2013 6:06 pm
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Posted: Sat Feb 02, 2013 6:30 pm
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Both Nishikawa and Takatori had been gone for a while now, retreating to monitor the situation on security cameras. "I'll tell you in the morning." Azriel whispered, not thinking that Hiroki could stand hearing about another operation right now. He smiled slightly, helping the older man to stand. "Of course you can hold me. I don't sleep well when your arms aren't around me, you know... The blanket helps... but..." Katsu sighed softly, trying to think about making tea... "Takatori!" The guard came a few minutes later. "Will you make some tea? Bring it and the box Asato brought with him to my room, ne?" For a second the man seemed like he might object, but then nodded and headed to the kitchen. Carefully, the young man kept his arms around Hiroki. "I'm so drunk... Maybe we should get you drunk, ne? Maybe..." For a moment, it seemed that Azriel was about to burst into tears. But then he smiled softly and held the older man against him warmly. "Do you want anything else, Asato-kun? I... I know it's New Years and I shouldn't have gotten drunk because I doubt I'd have been this angry... I just g0t so angry... now my head hurts..." Of course he had no idea that Hiroki's own head was going nuts with pain right now. But it was easier to hear himself talk than to hear the silence. How he hated silence... "I'm sorry..." the bat whispered softly then, pressing his head against the other man's shoulder. "I picked a bad time to be truthful..."
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Posted: Sat Feb 02, 2013 6:48 pm
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Posted: Sat Feb 02, 2013 6:56 pm
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Katsu fell silent then, looking at his house-shoe covered feet for a few moments. "It hurts... when you find out the truth you know is a lie..." the bat whispered, opening his bedroom door and helping the older man to the bed, having him sit down on the edge. "This morning... was fun, ne?" Azriel asked, undoing the buttons on Hiroki's shirt carefully. "I hadn't laughed like that before, you know? You had such a smile on your face." he spoke with a slight smile, hoping to distract the megane-clad man from darker things... From the truth... the bat's world... the shadows in his own soul. "So, tell me how your party was, Asato-kun. I was considered too... volatile to attend SMASH's." knowing dark eyes focused on the man as if saying themselves, 'Obviously now you that first hand'. "And there was an earthquake, ne? I almost fell over in the shower!"
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Posted: Sat Feb 02, 2013 7:14 pm
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Posted: Sat Feb 02, 2013 7:25 pm
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Anger bubbled up in Katsu as he pulled the shirt off Hiroki perhaps a bit too roughly. "Not everything was a lie." he hissed in annoyance. That morning hadn't been a lie... The times he'd spent with Hiroki just laying in bed hadn't been a lie... The shopping trip hadn't been a lie... His want to try new things... To go to new places... To see the ocean with the man who sat before him... Suddenly, Azriel slapped the older man across the face, glaring down at him fiercely. "Don't say that." the bat hissed again. "Will you just give up? Is that what he would have wanted? Is that what your sister would have wanted? Your family? I'M SORRY!" Katsu shouted at him, raising his hand as if to strike again but refraining. "I'M ******** SORRY! If it wasn't for me you'd be holding the man you rejected in your arms! You'd be home all nice and tucked into your own damn bed! You'd be the workaholic king of Ohayou who's job ruled everything from the clothes you wear to the car you drive! IF IT WASN'T FOR ME YOU'D BE HAPPY!" Drunk... angry... sad... Azriel walked into the closet and moved a few things around. He typed into a keypad, opened a safe, then came back, handing something to Hiroki. "If it wasn't for me..." Katsumi spoke softly now, hands grasping Hiroki's wrist and forcing the older man's hand to hold the object against the bat's stomach. It was a small knife, though larger than a pocket knife, and something which the bat kept around just in case... mainly to use to break plastic restraints if it came to it. "If it wasn't for me... you'd be happy. If you want to die so badly, Asato-kun... You're going to have to kill me first because I won't let you give up." He knew where the camera was in his room... knew that at this angle, neither Takatori (who was making tea) nor Nishikawa could see what was in Hiroki's hand nor that the blade was poking the vocalist in the gut.
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Posted: Sat Feb 02, 2013 7:48 pm
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Posted: Sat Feb 02, 2013 8:08 pm
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Katsumi fell with the man's pull, wrapping his arms around Hiroki's neck and shoulders as they descended. Black nails kept from pressing too hard as he buried his face in the older man's hair. "You're coming down from it already..." Azriel whispered, having seen people in withdrawal from the Doctor's drugs. "It's... it's why your head hurts... I think... maybe..." It wouldn't be so bad for the elephant of Ohayou because of the application method... but he would be having headaches for a few days at the least. "Don't... don't worry... I'll live, Asato-kun." the young man smiled softly, closing his eyes as he felt the warmth from the other man. "It's what I do... But it's also what I want you to do now. If... if you can love me... show me how to love... we'll be happy. We'll be happy." he whispered, letting his long nails gently stroke through Hiroki's hair. "We'll be happy." It seemed like an eternity, but really was only a few minutes, before there was a knock at the door. Takatori entered with a tray of tea and chocolate covered cherries on a plate. He didn't say anything, but set it down on the nightstand. His eyes saw the knife then and for a moment, looked as if to speak. But Katsu shook his head. Nodding, the bodyguard picked up the knife, pocketed it, then left the room, closing the door behind him. "Tea's here..." Azriel whispered a couple of minutes later, gently kissing the top of Hiroki's head. "I'm still so cold... I bet you feel cold too, ne? Let's drink some, onegai?"
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Posted: Sat Feb 02, 2013 8:24 pm
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