Get The Truth Out

[XxDarks_LightxX]

the reason i could say i hate my life is because i was left alone at the age 14 now that im 19...i had made bad choses and knowing what im doing wont help...my heart is dieing but i refuse to get a new one...i have joined in a gang but getting out i still fight with it intill now as i speak i have some one to love...no i have allot but i push them away knowing i will only hurt them...for all cases i try to help others but i could never help myself.....V.V  

[3dnightshade]

Xx Dark_Keeper xX

the reason i could say i hate my life is because i was left alone at the age 14 now that im 19...i had made bad choses and knowing what im doing wont help...my heart is dieing but i refuse to get a new one...i have joined in a gang but getting out i still fight with it intill now as i speak i have some one to love...no i have allot but i push them away knowing i will only hurt them...for all cases i try to help others but i could never help myself.....V.V

I can feel or you my mother died when I was nine and my father is an alchoholic. and our choices dont define us its who we are that defines us, you arent a bad person unless you choose to be, as for the gang situation I have no advise I have never been invoved with a gang. I know how it feels to try to shut ppl out because it will only hurt more when they leave you but Ive learned, quite recently, that you have to take a chance. if your trying to protect them, then try to reshape your life make it safe for the ones you love, you can change anny time if you feel the need. try to go to collage, make a life for your self. happieness is the best revenge. if you ever need to vent with a one on one person oyu can always PM me or any one on this thread Id say thogh confirm it with them 1st, but have hope and have faith in atleast your self.  

[xX_Miss_Puppet_Xx]

Everyone I trusted the most, just let me down. I trusted my older brother a lot, but i was just a toy for him to play with. I trusted my mom, but she was too caught up in herself to care about me much. I trusted one of my best friends, but she just left. I trusted all my other siblings, but they all left. I trusted my last three fathers but two of them left and the current one hides from my mom. I trusted all of my friends, but they all broke a promise to me and they all apparently have better things to do than to protect me. I trusted my church, but no one wants to get involved with my mom.
I'm ashamed of myself for everything I've ever done.

I'm a child forced to live in an adults world.

I wish that life would go in my favor, just this once.  

[3dnightshade]

xX_Master_Puppet_Xx

Everyone I trusted the most, just let me down. I trusted my older brother a lot, but i was just a toy for him to play with. I trusted my mom, but she was too caught up in herself to care about me much. I trusted one of my best friends, but she just left. I trusted all my other siblings, but they all left. I trusted my last three fathers but two of them left and the current one hides from my mom. I trusted all of my friends, but they all broke a promise to me and they all apparently have better things to do than to protect me. I trusted my church, but no one wants to get involved with my mom.
I'm ashamed of myself for everything I've ever done.

I'm a child forced to live in an adults world.

I wish that life would go in my favor, just this once.

I know wat you mean about being a child in an adults world, how old are you?
and I know how you feel about being let down, my big sis moved out the night my mom died.(it happens to be my mothers birthday) I dont know what your goin through but if you need to talk more one on one Im here and you can PM me if you want to,  

[xX_Miss_Puppet_Xx]

3dnightshade

xX_Master_Puppet_Xx

Everyone I trusted the most, just let me down. I trusted my older brother a lot, but i was just a toy for him to play with. I trusted my mom, but she was too caught up in herself to care about me much. I trusted one of my best friends, but she just left. I trusted all my other siblings, but they all left. I trusted my last three fathers but two of them left and the current one hides from my mom. I trusted all of my friends, but they all broke a promise to me and they all apparently have better things to do than to protect me. I trusted my church, but no one wants to get involved with my mom.
I'm ashamed of myself for everything I've ever done.

I'm a child forced to live in an adults world.

I wish that life would go in my favor, just this once.

I know wat you mean about being a child in an adults world, how old are you?
and I know how you feel about being let down, my big sis moved out the night my mom died.(it happens to be my mothers birthday) I dont know what your goin through but if you need to talk more one on one Im here and you can PM me if you want to,

I'm only 17. Ever since I was about 12 though, it's been like this. Thanks for your offer. I'll be sure to take you up on that if I need it. Thanks  

[3dnightshade]

Im 14, and oddly most of my problems started when I was around 12 also, well 11 but still. but you have to focus on the osotive and I know that can be hard but you have to try or else you will drive yourself insane, trust me Im one relapse from the loony bin myself lol  

[sorry-im-gone-bye]

i wana say somthing im so confused rite now my dad an a*****e he a damn drinker he scares me so bad and he lyies to me and trys to notlet my mom know anything tht happens.. his angry scares me i have no porwer in my name...my self....s**t my mom say i should live with her but with my dad...there its all i know my mom and dad are states away ive live with tht ******** a** for most of my life its all i know my friends my family my...EVERTHING ppl i relly care about, i dont know what to do im so confused ....i just want to give up...i hate him...I ******** HATE THT SON OF A b***h ... crying I HATE HIM......god damnit  

[cat lap take nap]

My "friend" made plans with me to hang out on a friday. when friday came I got a text that read...

"Sry I has to cancel.. I has to go to my grandpas house... Gay..."

A few days later I find out from another friend that she lied. On the same friday she went to a rave. I confronted her about it and it was true. She lied so she could go to a rave and she didn't even bother to invite me. Didn't even appologize. It seems every social action she takes is made to benefit herself. I've seen her mistreat other friends all for self benefit.

I don't need friends like her. She still talks to me like we are buddys, but she doesn't know that now I'm lying.  

[a quantum of frou frou]

:Slice of sympathy pizza for each and all:  

[sorry-im-gone-bye]

sinazcotI

:Slice of sympathy pizza for each and all:

my thxs  

[cassidy72008]

i hate my life cuz evryone thinks im gay an stupid. im not either but now it has gone through the WHOLE SCHOOL and im very lonly cuz no one likes me. sad sad scream scream crying sad  

[Misa_Blue_wolf]

I hate my life because i dont like me. I am bi polar and have autism too...its really annoying cuz i feel all alone and that no one REALLY likes me. I think people just feel sorry for me.

I have considered cutting again, but i really dont want to go down that route. But i dunno what to do.

I also cant stay single, i have to be with a guy every minute ...its the only thing that makes me feel better about myself >_<