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Meh...my life is surely plummeting towards hell thats for sure...

Please anoo dont commit We all care to much to lose you + I kind of think of you as my very first friend on here because you were the first person to consider me an equal besides cassie but she's gone now...

-I knew cassie in real life...-

*hugs and collapses*
I feel like total crap right now...

Oh, yeah, I don't plan to anytime soon and [probably] never will. I just know what it's like to deal with emotions like that and things.

I assumed that you knew her in real life. Really, the only thing you can do now is remember the good times that you had with her and remember her only for that. Killing herself was only a moment of weakness in her life, so you should look over it and just remember her as your friend.

I know it hurts to know that she's gone [one of my best friends died in a snowmobile accident a couple years ago] but in a way, she'll always be alive in your memories.

I'm so sorry for you...but you must see it as i saw my grandmother's passing (and no, she didnt die of old age...unfortunately) She was so sad and sick, i was almost happy at her passing because of the horrible suffering i felt from, and for her...

I know thats not the same in the least, but with all suffering, we all wish it to come to an end---And though the end was tragic---it at least, gave her rest. Something i assume she didnt have in this life...

"remember me as i was, not of what i have become" heart

I wrote something like that but I was planning to go off to the marines and never return.

I have two actually I just found my old poem...
- - -
Sit in my room contemplating my life
"Is it really worth all this trouble?"
Look at the razor and wish for it to slide across my skin
Like a paintbrush sliding across a eisel
Paint the masterpeace stained in blood
Watch it drip and count the drops
Lets make a record get the high score
This world wasnt meant for those who cant fight
At least those who cant fight for the one's they love
I lie in the bed gripping my bleeding arm
"why did I do that it was so stupid..."
It wasnt stupid it was rational
Simple deduction that if in world everything has a place
Mine was being taken over by another omni-prescent power and I cant fight it
ill just sit in the rain doubting my whole life
Hide the scars and build the bars
Iron bar's around my heart and cloth around my wounds
until one day I completely fade away under the iron bar's and theirs no more bandages for my wounds
- - -
~A last goodbye and a last word~
Lay in bed and think of you, and think of the life that I wanted for you
See you crying, all in pain. But all my efforts end in vain.
I tried, I really did to help but once again all my efforts were in vain.
You probably know that I mean you my family but if not here is a clue.
"I wont wait for you when you come back so this is goodbye."

Sorry for the failure's
Sorry for the lose's
I cant take them back so I let them burn in my memory
I wanted so much more to give but I gave all I could and all I could
Just wasnt enough to fill that void
The void I left is just a little dent, compared to the problem's that you lent
The problem's you lent, were just a begginer (a sampler if I might say) of what might come some day
So thanks for the problem's and thanks for the love that I wish was there, and thanks for the void that I will leave with my hair.
The military is the life for me and it shall allways be
Shave my head, Forget my name, I will never bow my head in shame
The hair falls down in its brown little locks like the little tears that I couldnt stop

So this is my last word and shall it be known as the last little cry of dameon
It truely is a shame and a moment for tear's
For this is the only time you will know my fears
I feared the world in its whole entirety
The mistakes I made in this old society
Fell in love and have it broken, only to live and love another day
Lost some friends and gained some trust
Never thought this would be so hard
But in the end it is
It will allways be hard to say and hard to write
As I write this im probably welling with tears about to drop but I cant let them for this is my final stop
Have to move on, Have to keep truckin
Its the only thing that keeps this thing runnin
I love you all and allways will
Good bye and good luck for this is my last forgotten will
- - -
There long but yeah...I wrote these a long time ago but they make all too much sense now...

(your poem made me cry)

Dammie, my heart breaks like strings snapping on a cold violin. I think are great works. I'm sorry about your friend truelly I am.

Thanks for compliements, really didn't want them just wanted the wrold to see aleast on side of suidicde

Piggy >.>

your flaming hair 3nodding

*takes flowers*
I dont really feel like being flirty right now sweatdrop
maybe afterschool (its 6:38 right now)