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 Posted: Fri Jan 13, 2012 3:48 pm
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I can no longer return to those days free of bloodshed
These deep scars rooted within me will not disappear...
"I understand. Um...if you ever need some help with Ko-kun, I'd be happy to babysit, or, uh, whatever you need, ya know." he couldn't help but to smile at the thought of taking care of such a sweet little boy. Like...a son. If he could win Shou back completely, then, maybe Ko could be like a son to him! Maybe...
Shou's words brought him out of his daydreaming thoughts, though, and he chuckled.
"Yeah...ok. Oyasumi, Shou." Jun chuckled and shook his head at his own awkwardness. There was just something about the way things were now that made him...different. He was the same person, at the core, but now that he viewed Shou as a.....as a mother....it brought out a shy, gentle, eager, and slightly awkward side of him. A warm side he was happy to be discovering.
Walking back to his room, guitar in hand, he turned to the closed door across the way once more.
"You know...I'm only really myself when you're in my arms." he whispered to nobody.
Back in his room, Jun sat down and began to strum the fairy-white guitar, playing with the tune for a while before he found what he was looking for...then he began to sing.
Yeah...
All is quiet on New Year's Day
A world in white gets underway
I want to be with you
Be with you night and day
Nothing changes on New Year's Day
On New Year's Day
I will be with you again
I will be with you again
Under a blood red sky
A crowd has gathered in black and white
Arms entwined, the chosen few
The newspapers says, says
Say it's true it's true...
And we can break through
Though torn in two
We can be one
I...I will begin again
I...I will begin again
Oh...
Maybe the time is right
Oh...maybe tonight...
I will be with you again
I will be with you again
And so we're told this is the golden age
And gold is the reason for the wars we wage
Though I want to be with you
Be with you night and day
Nothing changes
On New Year's Day
On New Year's Day
The song needed a little work. Something more, of course. Piano? Piano! Maybe...maybe he could talk Naoko into playing piano for this song? Maybe? If he could borrow him from Shou, even. Or not. Who knows...he'd deal with all that later.
For now, he was happy with what he had done. Perhaps he could scramble things together and have it released in time for New Year? Perhaps.
He would wait and see.
In all things, he would wait and see.
((Song: New Year's Day
Artist: U2))
Hide it, Hide it
Hide me...
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Posted: Fri Jan 13, 2012 9:12 pm
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"No... Shou will." Naoko replied, one eyebrow raised at his lover. "Didn't you feel his anger when he came to get Ko-kun? The man was livid."
By now the blond was held in Ryuukaze's arms, his amber eyes gazing up at the red of his dear akuma. "It isn't like I mean to try and kill you and you know it..." he pouted, annoyed that his lover kept bringing up THAT side of him. "I love you... even if I don't show it..."
Okay, so now the pianist felt guilty. He'd practically abandoned Ryu for Christmas in favor of his own brother.
And now he was mad at the violinist all because of that damned Jun.
If Jun just disappeared...
Wouldn't they all be happier?
Wouldn't he be happier?
Amber eyes closed for a moment as visions of the past flew around his mind, the lithe blond shivering slightly even in the hot onsen water. "Gomen... I've been selfish... haven't I?"
For some reason, Chiyou's words worried the guitarist. "And why do you think I wouldn't be happy?" Nakai asked, wondering why the 'kid' was suddenly so interested in his own happiness level.
Narcissus nodded, sitting down and crossing one leg over the other from his spot on the cream colored sofa. The cup of green tea rested in his fingers on the arm rest, blue eyes watching Izzy who stood before the fireplace.
"Keep the other apartment. I mean, it's not that close so maybe sometime if we get held up at Ohayou or something, we can crash there instead. Or... if you want to meet with some other star of yours, like Nakai." Akihiko knew that Izzy needed his space.
But in truth, he didn't want the other man out of his sight.
An overprotective jealousy had settled into the young tiger... he wanted to keep this man safe from the horrors out there... and wanted to keep him all for himself as well.
At least romantically if not in a business sense as well.
"Chiyou-kun doesn't have a manager right now either... which means you may be looking after his interests again, same with Nakai." Narcissus brought his tea to hips lips. "I can't monopolize you... much as I wish I could." he said with a smirk before sipping the hot beverage.
But the conversation turning to Asato... well something about that bothered the young Koyasu. "I wish he were back in the office to be honest... I'm worried about him way down there... especially without a guard escort or anything. This whole business with his sister just screams of foul play."
"Yare yare, Nezumi-san... don't look so flustered." Yuuji teased with a smirk, watching the mousy manager act as if he'd just ruined Christmas. "I would be happy to help you with the fondue or anything else, Tanaka-san." he continued, eyes on Michi's mother once more.
"But, and let me say this from personal experience, your son has developed quite a friendship with my cousin. That in itself will put him in the limelight. I've no doubt that Michi-kun's vocal career will be a success." Takagi continued, wanting to hopefully reassure the woman of her son's current choices in life.
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Posted: Fri Jan 13, 2012 9:44 pm
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What a shock, it was so surprising,
You looked so small and frail------------------------------------------------}:- 
Izzy Lucky
At times life can be so enlightening .uoy no nrut nac ti tuB
"If I end up working with them both and you, I'll never have time to sing." he answered as he turned from the fireplace and leaned against the mantle. Izzy really couldn't get enough of the heat to be honest. "If you want me to manage that stunt I better be paid quite a bit and...well, we wouldn't have much 'quality time' together." His lips held a smile even as he sipped his tea. He didn't think he partner would or could handle that. No not at all.
"Oh I'm sure you'd love to monopolize my time any way you can." He said as he walked over and sat down on the arm of the couch. "I wonder which would be more difficult...Managing three stars plus managing myself and singing...or your possessive and jealous nature." He teased Akihiko because the man just deserved it sometimes.
But then he sighed, "I am guessing he refused guards because he didn't want them interfering with the family's grieving process. But maybe you should check up on him. Mm...I agree with your assessment. It has to be...foul play. And I feel bad for the man. He's not had it easy these past few months either." Izzy was rather worried because things did have rather a tenuous feel about them. If Asato-san changed his mind and quit for any reason...it would make Akihiko's life hell. And his own.
-:{------------------------------------------------I didn't know what to do
I grabbed the tiger by the tail!
Let the Memories of the Evening be...
the first think that you think of------------------------------------------------}:- 
Tanaka Michi
Physical Therapist
Fingertips...walking up your spine...a tongue sliding right behind..
She smiled as Yuuji spoke and took in his words. Of course, it would still take her awhile to accept things even if what Yuuji said was true. A life as a musician wasn't exactly what she thought a good normal life would entail. Her ideas fit more around the graduate school, follow in mother's footsteps, marry, have her grand kids and live a normal average life.
Musicians lives weren't stable also the drugs and drinking were enough alone to be a put off to the older woman. However, she kept those thoughts to herself. Michi had to make decisions for himself now that he was an adult. Although, she did have her preferences.
"Mmm...well why don't we start preparing the fondue and other dishes. Some of Michi's cousins will arrive later and we will have dinner. They live just around the corner so there isn't any worry about them not making it or staying over." she said before looking at Michi, "Why don't you take Takagi-san and Nezumi-san's bags upstairs to the guest room and your room, Michi. Yes you'll have to share the futon space tonight. I'll let the 3 of you figure out where and who."
Michi got up and smiled at the other two men, "Come on let's go upstairs." Grabbing the bags, he worked his way up and show the men the two rooms. "You guys figure out who sleeps where."
He showed them both spaces. The guest room was small but comfortable space decorated with warm flowered quilts and pillows on a day bed with a low desk close by.
The other room which was Michi's had a bunk bed and was painted dark blue and about the same size as the guest room. Upon Michi's walls were decorative quilts with more boyish themes. Also, a few trophies from school sports as well as books from his days at University. Pretty much a normal boy's room with no real frills.
-:{------------------------------------------------when you open up your smile and see me.
...Dark Star. |
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Posted: Fri Jan 13, 2012 10:03 pm
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 ~( Lonely ) Mayotta nara~
~( Try again ) Nando datte~
~Yarinaosu koto dekiru kara~
"So what? Shou get's mad, he gets over it. He may yell at me, fire me from the band...whatever. Still totally worth it." the violinist smirked, being stubborn as always.
"Hey, hey, I didn't mean in a bad way. I was picking on you. Remember...the lip ring incident? Heh..." Ryu laughed, nuzzling his face against Naoko's neck, then kissing it gently....followed by a light bite.
"I know you love me, Naoko, just as I love you." he whispered, pulling the pianist's body even closer to his.
"I wouldn't say selfish, really...just...overcautious, perhaps?" the violinist replied, thinking of how angry Naoko had been with him the vast majority of their evening together.
He seemed better at making the blond angry than happy. Angry...or sad.
At least that's how he felt sometimes.
Sometimes he wondered....if Naoko might not just be better off without him.
~( I’m here )~ Soba ni iru wa~
~( Believe me ) Osorenai de~
~Shinjiau koto....~
~FOR YOU~
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Posted: Fri Jan 13, 2012 10:22 pm
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Posted: Sat Jan 14, 2012 6:54 am
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Posted: Sat Jan 14, 2012 3:51 pm
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What a shock, it was so surprising,
You looked so small and frail------------------------------------------------}:-
Izzy Lucky
At times life can be so enlightening .uoy no nrut nac ti tuB
Izzy's lips curled into a smile as Akihiko's hand moved around his waist. He was very content for once in his life. "I would if I could, Akihiko but if I did that, you'd feel like a caged tiger. I'd never want you to feel so over protected by me that you couldn't stretch those paws." he said with a smile.
"Although the thought of having your arms around me...most days would be dreamy. But, reality tells me, you're my busy partner and I'll be supportive when you're away from my side...and a passionate when you've returned." His eyes glanced down at his lover tenderly and his free hand reached over to stroke his partner's cheek. "I love you enough to give you the space you need...and love you enough to pull you back too."
The words about Hiroki was a surprise but maybe more so was the comments afterwards, "I don't know, Akihiko. After LA, I'm not sure that man wants to visit with you, or anyone else for that matter. He'd really become quite a recluse....and downright...mean." 'Mean' was a mild word for what he thought of the Chairman at the moment. "But...if you want me to go with you to see him, I will. I won't leave you alone while you're...dealing with him."
While Izzy didn't know everything that the Chairman was doing, the things that he did in regards to his family was just plain...wrong. Even though, Izzy's parents left much to be desired too. What was it about that generation? Were they just so heartless about their children? He really didn't know. Maybe it was just bad luck because his Aunt and Uncle were gems he'd never let go. To him they were 'Mom' and 'Dad' more so than his own.
-:{------------------------------------------------I didn't know what to do
I grabbed the tiger by the tail! |
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Posted: Sat Jan 14, 2012 6:28 pm
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One delicate eyebrow arched as Akihiko looked to his manager. "And yet you're content with a cage yourself? I highly doubt that." he replied, setting his tea down on the coffee table. "I'm over protective and jealous and you're going to have to deal with those bars, Ruki. I almost lost you twice..." blue eyes focused in on the megane-clad man intently. "I won't let it happen again."
He stood, taking Izzy's cup from his hands and also placing it on the coffee table. Then, his partner's fingers in his own, lead the smaller man down the hall slowly, grabbing a black drawstring bag from his luggage near the door on the way. "See... I figure the old b*****d just needs to put up with me. I don't take orders well and you know that." Narcissus smirked, leading Izzy now down a short flight of steps to his recording studio. "He's old. Old people can be mean by necessity if they want. I mean honestly, they've lived a long time. I'd probably be horrendously mean. And just look at Izo... he's old and mean. Then again your aunt and uncle aren't spring chickens themselves... but they're nice."
Upon opening his studio door, Izzy would get to see one of Narcissus' best kept secrets...
His inner most sanctuary... even more so than his bedroom.
There were guitars and bass guitars, acoustic and electric... a drum set, bongos, and even a few taiko. There was a violin and a cello, a shamisen and koto and even a flute, a saxophone, and a keyboard. But what Narcissus lead his lover to... was the piano.
Carefully, Akihiko set the bag down, "Don't open that yet." he said with a smirk, sitting at the piano and leaving enough room for Izzy to join him on the bench.
Without another word though... he started to sing... fingers playing the notes ever so delicately as his words flowed through the soundproof room.
It was a song... that Akihiko had never sung to anyone before. Something that he had written during his time in Hawaii, just after being released from the hospital.
He had thought Izzy lost...
And this song had been his way of coping.
Sure, the musician had written a lot of music that next week... and all of that music was making it's way onto the CD that would soon go into production.
But not this song.
This song... was for Izzy and he alone.
I continued wandering aimlessly, all alone
A faint sigh painting a stroke of white
In the ephemeral nature of the changing seasons
Tears overflowed without any reason
"Even now I love you..."
あてもなく一人 さまよい歩き続けた
かすかな吐息を ただ白く染めて
移り変わりゆく 季節のその儚さに
理由もなく 涙がこぼれた
「今も愛している…」
Atemonaku hitori samayoi aruki tsuduketa
Kasukana toiki wo tada shiroku somete
Utsuri kawari yuku kisetsu no sono hakanasa ni
Wake mo naku namida ga koboreta
“Ima mo aishite iru...”
The continually falling sadness changes into pure white snow
Through it all, I raised my head to the sky
Before this body disappears now, if my wish reaches you
Please hold me tight just once more
降り続く悲しみは 真っ白な雪に変わる
ずっと空を見上げてた
この身体が消える前に 今願いが届くのなら
もう一度強く抱きしめて
Furi tsuduku kanashimi wa masshiro na yuki ni kawaru
Zutto sora wo miageteta
Kono karada ga kieru mae ni ima negai ga todoku no nara
Mou ichido tsuyoku dakishimete
We didn't understand each other and hurt each other over and over again
Even at those times you were always kind
I cut myself on the suddenly surrendered ring
As our promises to each other were not granted
"Even now I remember..."
解り合えなくて 何度もキズつけていた
そんな時でも いつも優しくて
ふいに渡された 指輪に刻まれていた
ふたりの約束は 叶わないままに
「今も憶えている…」
Wakari ae nakute nando mo kizutsukete ita
Sonna toki demo itsumo yasashikute
Fui ni watasareta yubiwa ni kizamarete ita
Futari no yakusoku wa kanawa nai mama ni
“Ima mo oboete iru...”
The fading memories are too brilliant as always
I wanted to be closer by
We can't meet again but you were always close to hold me up
Just you, don't change yourself
遠ざかる想い出は いつまでも眩しすぎて
もっと側に居たかった
もう二度と逢えないけど いつも側で支えてくれた
あなただけは変わらないでいて
Tooza karu omoide wa itsumademo mabushi sugite
Motto soba ni ita katta
Mou nido to ae naikedo itsumo soba de sasaetekureta
Anata dake wa kawara naide ite
I can't erase those last tears that you showed me [from my memory]
最後に見せた涙が消せなくて
Saigo ni miseta namida ga kese nakute
Even if I disappear along with this white snow
I want to always bloom in your heart
この白い雪たちと 一緒に消えてしまっても
あなたの心の中にずっと 咲いていたいから
Kono shiroi yuki tachi to issho ni kiete shimatte mo
Anata no kokoro no naka ni zutto saite itai kara
We held each other close don't forget that warmth
Even if you love someone else
I'll never let go of the sound the last I heard of your voice
I want to fall into a deep sleep
The continually falling sadness changes into pure white snow
Through it all, I raised my head to the sky
Before this body disappears now, if my wish reaches you
Please hold me tight just once more
寄りそって抱き合った 温もりは忘れないでね
違う誰かを愛しても
最後に聞いたあなたの声を このままずっと離さないまま
深く眠りに落ちたい
降り続く悲しみは 真っ白な雪に変わる
ずっと空を見上げてた
この身体が消える前に 今願いが届くのなら
もう一度強く抱きしめて
Yori sotte daki atta nukumori wa wasure nai de ne
Chigau dareka wo aishite mo
Saigo ni kiita anata no koe wo kono mama zutto hanasa nai mama
Fukaku nemuri ni ochitai
Furi tsuduku kanashimi wa masshiro na yuki ni kawaru
Zutto sora wo miageteta
Kono karada ga kieru mae ni ima negai ga todoku no nara
Mou ichido tsuyoku dakishimete
"Please hold me tight just once more..."
「もう一度強く抱きしめて…」
“Mou ichido tsuyoku dakishimete...”
When he was finished, Akihiko let his fingers slip from the ivory keys. He smiled slightly at Izzy for a moment, before winking and reaching down, picking up the drawstring bag.
"Tanjoubi omedetou... Ruki." the musician spoke, leaning over and giving his manager a gentle kiss to the lips while, at the same time, slipping the drawstring bag onto Izzy's lap.
After Crystal had given the young Koyasu those picture negatives, Akihiko had gotten Yuuji to run a few errands for him... mainly to get those negatives printed and bound into a photo album.
All for Izzy's birthday.
The musician hoped... that it would give his lover a little piece of home to hold in his heart after all the recent disasters.
(((OOC: Song used as "Last Song" by GACKT... this edit being posted on 10/02/2021 lol... kinda late there...))) |
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Posted: Sat Jan 14, 2012 7:05 pm
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What a shock, it was so surprising,
You looked so small and frail------------------------------------------------}:-
Izzy Lucky
At times life can be so enlightening .uoy no nrut nac ti tuB
"Mm...it depends on what I consider a cage doesn't it? You're arms around me are not cage like." he answered as he sipped on his tea. "I find them very loving and gentle. But being over protective and jealous isn't healthy for you. I can understand the protectiveness...but you shouldn't be jealous. I'm not thinking of other men at night when I'm with you. You should trust me."
Maybe the only man he might have considered in recent days was Shou. If Akihiko wouldn't have shown up, then things might have been different. But Ruki was happy with the direction things had went at least with he and Akihiko.
And as for the worries about what might happen to him...well yes, being back in Japan hadn't done well for Izzy in the past several months and the tsunami had been another set back. But things were better now weren't they? All he could do was try to move on and make music for a change or be a manager or both! Yes, life had to become more normal soon...didn't it?
He took Akihiko's hand and followed him down the hall unsure of what Akihiko had planned. "Yes, I know he'll probably put up with you but he's...mm...a complete jerk." And that was putting it mildly. The words Izzy had for the Chairman were not small but a string of explicatives that could stretch around Ohayou. There were moments he questioned his own ability to work with Ohayou while that man was still alive and kicking. But he didn't express this to Akihiko right then and there. So he just sucked in his breath instead and said, "Where are we going?"
When the door opened, his eyes brightened as he gazed into the room. "So this is where you hide and create your masterpieces. So! you even hid this from your manager." He crossed his arms for a moment and pouted, "Troublesome star."
But he joined his partner on the bench then looked at the keys and had to tease, "Alright...I won't open it. So...are we going to play Mary had a little lamb together? Is this going to be my first piano lesson." Izzy's ears and voice might have become in tune with music after all these years with his stars but his fingers never did quite follow suit. He was glad that there were back up bands to do that job.
But then, Akihiko started to sing and Izzy was immediately enchanted by every note...every movement of those lips. Each word...he could feel the profound thoughts of a grieving soul. Slowly, his cheeks blushed and his eyes began to water as he heard the emotions from Akihiko's heart. He didn't want to cry...but tears fell. Such sweet music even though so sad....
"Thank you..." he could barely make out of his pressed lips that tried not to tremble only stilled completely by the warm kiss placed upon them.
He slowly opened the bag and carefully pulled out the photo album. Gently, opening the book, he laughed a little as he wiped his eyes on his sleeve. "I've not looked at these in...years. You saw these? Oh...my...my first car." He sniffled with a smile. Leaning close, he gave Akihiko a hug, "I don't know what to say except I love you..."
-:{------------------------------------------------I didn't know what to do
I grabbed the tiger by the tail! |
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Posted: Sat Jan 14, 2012 7:25 pm
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Posted: Sat Jan 14, 2012 7:36 pm
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Reaching up with his free hand, Akihiko gently caressed Izzy's cheek, returning that kiss before pulling back just enough to touch his forehead against that of his lover.
"Hey... this is the real me. I'm not putting on airs or trying to charm you to get you in bed. This is just... Akihiko." the musician replied, giving Izzy another quick peck on the lips before he spun around and stood up from the piano bench. "Besides... how could I write songs of love if I wasn't romantic, ne?" he asked with a wink, stepping toward his wall of instruments.
"So... can you play anything?" the young Koyasu asked, glancing back over his shoulder at Izzy. "I could teach you any of these if you'd like... or you can just go with dancing sexy on stage for your fans instead." he laughed softly, enjoying his time with the shorter man. "My sanctuary can be yours too you know... well... unless I'm in a MOOD. Then the door will probably be locked... you should have seen how hard it was for Michi-kun to get me to eat when I was in the mood for music in Hawaii... I just... end up not thinking about anything else but the notes and the lyrics and the sound... the emotion."
Turning around completely, arms crossed over his hips in a comfortable position, though one that was usually associated with the young Koyasu's need for drugs as of late, he raised one finger, talking with one hand as he walked toward his partner. "See... I figure it this way... my place is your place for as long as you want it. If you want to leave the album here, then you're more than welcome to. I've got advanced security so the day the house goes down in flames... I'll know you were in the kitchen trying to make toast." Akihiko teased, reaching one hand out and ruffling the man's hair.
"So... want to help me bake you a birthday cake?" he asked with an oh-so-charming wink.
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Posted: Sat Jan 14, 2012 7:54 pm
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