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Confiding in Christof

Stupid Death Charm!

Apparently the room I ran into the hide from him was Christof's, he was fixing his arm or something. I was so happy to see him! He didn't seem all that comfortable though, maybe he doesn't like being seen in pieces? I don't understand why, bodies are just meat suits...oh well. Anyway, Christof saved me from Death Charm! He used a shovel and took some swings at it but it was great! DC ended up in the hallway again and I stayed put.

Did you know Christof has pictures of hands in his room? It's true!

Apparently he's embarrassed by those, too.

He's embarrassed by a lot of things.

Anyway we got to talking and I...kind of told him that I'm stuck. I've never told anyone that before! It was so hard to get out....but I think he understood that. He was very nice about it all, I wonder if I could get him to help me with a new body once I get out of this one? That would be nice, very nice.

I don't remember what happened after that...I woke up in my room on my bed and Death Charm was laying on my stomach...

Helping Charlie get un-lost

I met this really, really weird Demon today.

His name is Charlie, and he accidentally showed up at the Undead dorms. I think he might've gotten mixed up somehow, because Demons have their own dorms! I kind of ran into him, and somehow, I don't know how, he insists on calling me 'hard head'. MY HEAD ISN'T HARD HE'S NOT BEING VERY NICE! Either way, I helped him to the Demon Dorms and that was that. He gave me these broken glasses though, I don't know why; he also seemed really sad when I said I didn't want to go into the Demon Dorms by myself...

By the way, did you know that having one leg shorter than the other makes you have a hard time reading? I didn't!

DETENTION?! D:

--Being worked on--

A Lesson in Posture Etiquette

I'm...not really sure why I took this class. I'm sure it seemed like a great idea at the time! I mean, it's always good to know these things, right? That must have been what I thought. Being a ghoul is tough though! Livi tells me to be fashionable, Calder was kind of crazy about me not knowing makeup...so I guess it's an etiquette thing. I was trying to keep all these things in mind when I got ready for the class. I dressed in my best (and unscorched, thank you DC) dress, and I spent forever (okay, maybe half hour) trying to put up my hair...is this what a ghoul does every day? It takes so long and there's so much to think about! I just...I don't know if I could do it every day!

I have a new found respect for those that can, though. Because it's just...too much. :C And all I did was put up my hair and put on a nice dress!

Anyway, there were a lot of people in this class I knew. Livi, Christof, Charlie, Siddie, Julian...a bunch more from the Truth or Dare game, including that ghoul I said that poem for. I think I'm getting to know a lot of my fellow first years by joining in things that make me uncomfortable. But like Livi said (diary; i think it was Livi that said it), I'm here to get better, right? Being uncomfortable and making it out okay counts, right?

The Teacher - I don't recall her name - had us walk. Like, posture walk. It was hard! My feet don't point like they should in this body! But I did just fine I guess, even with the book and perfume box on my head. I don't know how I did it, but I did. Barely.

Maybe it was from all that running...

But the homework! I don't want to do the homework! ;; I don't want to tell people about my culture, it was hard enough to tell Christof! Just...I don't know what to do!!

Checking up on Christof

I was worried about him, so I went to go see him after class. The poor guy seemed like he was in a LOT of pain...I couldn't imagine trying to stand straight with that hunch of his! I guess he was just trying to overdo it...which I'm told is a bad thing. Or at least was told, when I was small...er. I cleaned the blood off of his face and went to help him with his caravat but he freaked out or something...idk I think I accidentally made him uncomfortable.

I'll try to remember to apologize later (psst future self; if you haven't apologized yet, go do it right now).

I hope he liked the mud pie I got him! It was on sale at the bakery~

FOR SCIENCE!

Today, Christof dragged me out of my room in a huge fuss. He looked like an absolute mess, and what was worse he wouldn't tell me anything! Not why, not where we were going, nothing!

Turns out he was leading me to Malodore's room; apparently Christof talked to them and they agreed to help, so...they wanted to meet me.

THEY WANTED TO HELP ME!

Help! Me!

I've...I've never been so happy! Riley tried to find out what it was that was holding me in this body and, get this, she thinks it's all me. Like, not that I'm not strong, just...I think I'm not strong, so...I'm keeping myself locked in or something. I don't get it, but Riley is smart, so she would know best, right? Right.

Riley did something, like, entered my mind or whatever. I felt so...depressed. So numbingly upset. It ended shortly though, and Riley was tired after that, so...I kind of just left.

Malodore said I should start thinking of what kind of body I want, but...I don't know where to start!

So helpful! *u*

I finally got a hold of Jericho today, I've been meaning to thank him for saving me in Christmas town! So I took him out for lunch (HE ORDERED FLAMING BAT WINGS WHY JUST WHY), and I asked him some questions about ghoul bodies. He was really helpful! Well, kind of. Not really...aside from height I don't really have much more to go by. But in the end I do have to thank him for that help.

OH BUT he did help me with DC! DC now has a heating pad and lamp to curl up under...he's already kind of leaving me alone. Sort of.