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 Posted: Wed Jun 22, 2011 8:39 pm
Do you know what you got into
Can you handle what I’m ’bout to do------------------------------------------------}:-  SAI
No escaping when I start .traeh ruoy nwo I ni m'I ecnO
"You don't know how much hearing your happy voice makes me smile." Sai sighed in relief just knowing that his younger brother was ok. "A few days? Ah...my little Ko-kun, I'll try so hard to be just me for a few days. Mm...so hard some times. Shou...he's so...much the storm." How could Sai explain all the things that he didn't understand which sometimes flipped him from who he was to what all the Fans in the world wanted to see. It was difficult but Sai feared psychologists and anything that might tamper with his head.
"How about we spend a few days together when I return..somewhere quiet. I'll even let you pick the location." his voice was smiling as he spoke while he started to unbutton his shirt to finally get comfortable.
"Someone harassed you? Well I'm glad that Jun was there but...well mm.. you're ok right? Ah..I..I believe Shou called him before you. It was upsetting." his voice shuddered for a moment but then became warm again. "It's ok I'm sure that Jun was just certain it wasn't possible. Well I'm quite a survivor it seems. Good thing Lucky-san knew how to fix motors...or we might not have gotten back to the island. It was terrible experience but Lucky-san had the patience to deal with someone..like me for two weeks alone on a boat."
"So how's Jun? Is he ok?" Of course in the back of Sai's mind. He was a little concerned about Jun being alone with Naoko and having suspected that he was gone...for good. But Jun really wanted to turn a new leaf right? "Does he want to talk to me?"
-:{------------------------------------------------Cause it’s about to get rough for you
I’m here For Your Entertainment
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Posted: Wed Jun 22, 2011 8:45 pm
I can no longer return to those days free of bloodshed
These deep scars rooted within me will not disappear...
 Frankly, Hayato had no idea what to say. Standing there, he listened to the conversation go on, and he couldn't help but wonder if it really were Shou. Or...apparently...Sai...as things sounded now. Ok...so it had to be him if he were speaking as Sai. That much he just knew. As much as, deep down, he still wanted to deny it. "I didn't know. Said it was Shou....but....but I thought...it had to be a lie." Jun stammered, having no clue how he felt, how he should feel, what the proper response to all this would be. All he could manage was to take a deep breath and sit down on the bed. Anxious. Yes...that was what he was feeling right now. Most definitely anxious, for whatever reason. "Tell him...I love him..." he found himself speaking, but the voice felt foreign coming out of him, as if it weren't his own. Looking up at Naoko, Jun's lower lip quivered, warm wetness dotting the edges of his eyes. "Are you really going to let yourself do this again? Do you want to be weak? Do you want to suffer?" a voice snarled somewhere deep inside his mind. "Excuse me, Naoko...I....I can't...." he shook his head as if trying to shake himself free of something before heading into the bathroom and shutting the door behind himself. He couldn't deal with this. How could he? Shou was supposed to be gone. Naoko was supposed to be his. He couldn't have both. Naoko was the one that he really wanted! Right? Right? Staring into the mirror, Nagasaki Jun didn't even recognize himself anymore. Hide it, Hide it
Hide me...
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Posted: Wed Jun 22, 2011 8:57 pm
What wouldn't I do for King and Country...
Yes Sir!------------------------------------------------}:- Asato Hiroki
Chairman's Secretary - Ohayou Productions
Doing what one does best...??
"No I wasn't expecting you to do anything. I agree with you. He needs time to recover. Although we both know he's a workaholic and god knows how life was alone on a boat with Shou-san for 2 weeks. He seemed a little stressed on the TV. But...well...." he stopped his words right there because didn't want to start a conversation that might lead to an argument. He had an idea that Ishi-san might just quit...he wouldn't be surprised.
"Alright well, I wouldn't have wanted to drop Nezumi-san from the job too quick considering how hectic your schedule will be when you return to Japan." he finally said covering up his real thoughts not wanting to disrupt the actually good moment they seemed to be having.
-:{------------------------------------------------No Sir!
...Where you Lead - that is the Path I Follow.
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Posted: Wed Jun 22, 2011 8:58 pm
"You pick." Naoko argued with a smile. "After all, it was supposed to be YOUR vacation, ne?"
The voice on the other end of the line was the soothing balm he'd needed for a while now. Losing his brother to Shou, basically, had been a very disturbing blow to the younger Oumori. One of the many things that lead up to his complete mental breakdown.
So hearing his brother's voice, not Shou's, was like water to his parched soul.
"Yeah, I'm fine. Well, I'm hungover but other than the headache and queasiness when I stand up, I'm fine." the blond replied, rubbing his temple absently to try and massage away the throbbing in his skull. "And Jun's fine, he..."
But before Naoko could finish his sentence, Hayato was apologizing and dashing to the bathroom.
Obviously confused, the pianist shook his head. "He thought you were dead too so... I think it hit him hard that he hung up on you. But he did tell me to tell you that he loves you. I think... I think he's having problems accepting that this is real."
Sitting there though on Jun's floor, Naoko couldn't help but feel suddenly uneasy.
Mainly because of how Hayato was now acting.
After all... shouldn't the man be as happy as he himself was?
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Posted: Wed Jun 22, 2011 9:15 pm
Do you know what you got into
Can you handle what I’m ’bout to do------------------------------------------------}:- SAI
No escaping when I start .traeh ruoy nwo I ni m'I ecnO
"Oh god I don't know...mm...maybe Osaka for a few day? We could go to the theaters...and eat takoyaki. I swear Lucky-san has turned me on to the idea eating that and Nachos! He's going to drag me out to have Mexican while I'm here." His words were filled with laughter and seemed very cheerful. "I can't wait to see you."
But then he heard about Jun the words lost that happy note, "Thank you. I...I love him too...He...well I'm sure he will feel better when I'm back." Although inside he wasn't too sure. Shou...Shou had thought he'd have been happy. What was really wrong?? But he did say, he loved him. Was that just words or...."Naoko, how has he been acting? Maybe you should call a taxi and go home. If he's not feeling good. Well, mm...I know he trying to change but..." Sai as always worried about Naoko's safety...always.
-:{------------------------------------------------Cause it’s about to get rough for you
I’m here For Your Entertainment
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Posted: Wed Jun 22, 2011 9:26 pm
Scurrying around the room like a mouse, Nezumi had nearly all of his tasks arranged and completed, for the time being. Still had to go fax a few papers and make sure Yammi and his band had all they would need for Narcissus' arrival back in Japan, but other than that, he was done.
Then, he got another text message...from Hiroki.
"Are you shitting me?!" the manager whispered aloud to himself, absolutely dumbfounded at the news.
"Yatta!!!" the mouse could be heard cheering then, probably all the way down the hall. What happy news this was! Yes, he had to miss his dinner with Hiroki...but two good people were alive! That was much more important!
Straightaway, the mouse began packing his bags, taking special care to remove a certain red rose from it's vase, pressing it flat inside a book to press it and let it dry.
He would keep that flower for the rest of his life...
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Posted: Wed Jun 22, 2011 9:56 pm
"Who wouldn't be stressed, stuck at sea two weeks?" Akihiko asked, hands on his hips. "When we get back to Japan, I'm making sure I have enough time to at least cook him something for dinner most nights. He eats horribly when left on his own... and he needs the vitamins and proteins for his own health."
It was at that moment he heard Nezumi yell from down the hall... and the true Akihiko couldn't help but smile at the fact that so many people were, well, overjoyed with today's events.
Naoko smiled, "A somewhat traditional vacation?" he asked, wondering just what his brother had in mind. "We'll do whatever you want, niisan. Ice cream on the beach sounds good too."
But then his brother's next words gave him pause. "Jun's been... really nice, Sai. He hasn't done anything bad or tried anything with me which, obviously, I'm thrilled about. Before he'd tried to change himself, I'd always thought he'd be a monster but... but now..." the blond couldn't help but smile to himself. "Now I see what you saw in him."
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Posted: Thu Jun 23, 2011 7:36 am
What wouldn't I do for King and Country...
Yes Sir!------------------------------------------------}:-  Asato Hiroki
Chairman's Secretary - Ohayou Productions
Doing what one does best...??
"Ah yes, I know. He does eat very badly left to his own devices. Or he doesn't eat at all." Listening to Koyasu-kun brought a little warmth to Hiroko's opinion of the man. At least, Koyasu-kun had finally found someone that he 'wanted' to love. But, Hiroki worried and he had a feeling once Koyasu-sama saw the report that he might be concerned too. Hiroki at this moment wanted to do anything to make sure that Koyasu-kun's tender side didn't get trampled by his past mistakes.
However, Hiroki wasn't going to step in. He couldn't they had already play other games that had made a mess out of his own life. He'd let Koyasu-kun work this one out. Besides, this was the first time that Hiroki knew of where the younger man might have to actually work to improve relationship he messed up. Hikori wondered if Koyasu-kun could actually manage it.
But then Hiroki looked up as he heard the cheer. That brightened the look on his face in more ways that one. "I guess we should start packing or Nezumi-san might beat us to the plane."
-:{------------------------------------------------No Sir!
...Where you Lead - that is the Path I Follow.
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Posted: Thu Jun 23, 2011 10:36 am
Do you know what you got into
Can you handle what I’m ’bout to do------------------------------------------------}:- SAI
No escaping when I start .traeh ruoy nwo I ni m'I ecnO
"I think a traditional vacation is just what I need. Nothing fancy no big plans. Mm...the beach might be a little chilly right now. But we could walk it during the day." Sai kind of cringed at the thought of the beach at night. He had to get himself up to the idea that Tsunami didn't occur at random and on every beach. "Ice cream. Oh boy, I'll be cleaning up after you if you eat that. No cones for you!"
"I know he can be really nice, Naoko. But don't be naive. He's got problems he's still working through and if he thought I was dead, well I don't know what he might have been thinking. I just want you to be safe." he then paused and smiled in thought, "Yeah, there are many sweet things inside Jun. I just hope they have a chance to blossom. Mm...I miss his cooking and he always makes sure Shou...mmm...doesn't stay out all night. It's good for Shou to have...mmm...boundaries." It was actually very difficult to contain Shou for too long but he did keep coming home to Jun at nights so something had to be said for that part of the relationship even if Sai...was uncertain about Jun's intentions at the moment.
As always, Sai thought Jun and Naoko both needed help even though he was a hypocrite and could not get help for himself. Although with his own problem, Shou wouldn't even believe he had a problem. There was no problem in Shou's mind. Sai didn't exist in that realm. So complicated.
"Please make sure you call me when you arrive at your house. I'll have this number available until the man arrives with my new phone. Yamada-san is ahead of things as usual. If anything does happen and you need help, please reach out to Yamada-san, he take care of things if I'm not available. I should let you go now because this bed feels really good and I haven't had real sleep in a real bed in ages." Sai yawned and tossed his shirt over the chair then started to pull down the sheets.
-:{------------------------------------------------Cause it’s about to get rough for you
I’m here For Your Entertainment
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Posted: Thu Jun 23, 2011 11:44 am
I can no longer return to those days free of bloodshed
These deep scars rooted within me will not disappear...
Remembered.... He remembered.... All the electric shocks and moments of asphyxiation in the world couldn't hide those memories for long. The memories of he and Sai...of he and Shou. Of how Sai had made him feel...human. Of all the dreams and hopes and good intentions he actually felt when he let himself, all because of Sai. It only made him all the more low, though. Full of grief, anger, resentment, rage. He had let it go, gotten it back, and knew he would have to let it go again...this time by force. It was enough to drive a sane man mad, and a mad man twice as broken. The ******** had he gotten himself into? Well, regardless, he had to think fast. It would have to be about survival now...for all of them. They would either make it through this, or get tangled in this web even deeper and be consumed. The least he could do was help the two most beloved flies escape before the spider came for it's meal. "But..do you really want to do that....Hayato? You could bring them down with you, become the spider's accomplice and share in the delicious meal for as long as you like..."That voice again....torturing him, taunting him....haunting him. looking into the mirror, it wasn't his own reflection he saw...but that of his older brother. Gasping, Jun scrambled backwards, afraid of the image he saw...but the image was gone as quick as it came. The only man in the mirror was himself. Jun. He was Jun. He had to do what was right... "Naoko....I need to talk to you...." Jun came quickly from the bathroom and marched right over to the pianist, taking the phone from his hand. "Sai...come home soon. As soon as you can. And...come home to me as yourself, please. I need to talk to you. Now you rest, I'll look after Naoko. I promise. I...I love you." It sounded like Sai was trying to say something, but he couldn't make it out before he hung up. He just...couldn't stand to hear that voice right now. Not now. "Gomen, kitten, but I need you to listen to me," the dark vocalist leaned down, his long fringe of black hair draping over his face to give him an ominous appearance. "And listen good." Hide it, Hide it
Hide me...
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Posted: Thu Jun 23, 2011 12:00 pm
"Of course we wouldn't be out there at night. Just, you know... it's an important part of my memories, niisan. You and I eating ice cream at the beach..." Naoko replied, a very faint embarrassed blush on his pale cheeks. "But we don't have to if you don't want to. I doubt you'd really want to see the ocean again, ne?"
He couldn't help but laugh when Sai mentioned 'no cones' for his little brother.
However, the older Oumori soon changed the subject back to Hayato, and the pianist couldn't help but frown.
Sai was right...
"Guess I've always been too naive. I mean... I know he has problems. I do too. I'm... not always stable like right now. But I'm getting help for it. Really. Ryu's taking me to a psychiatrist and everything. I'm doing what I can to get better. Maybe..." the blond paused. "Maybe you could see him too. I... I don't want Shou to disappear, niisan. I just want you to be in control of when you're him and then when you're, well, you." he smiled softly. "I like Shou. I mean, he's a genius really... and I wouldn't want the world to lose that. But I don't like losing you too... you know?"
There was another long pause, Naoko listening to what his brother had to say.
"Right. I'll call you when I get home. I can't wait to tell Ryu! He'll be so happy! And yeah. I like Yamada-san too. He's... understanding in a way. So if anything happens and I can't get you, I'll call him. Yakusouku."
Seeing Jun coming out of the bathroom, the pianist knew his conversation would have to end soon. Especially since Sai seemed very tired.
"Get some sleep, niisan. Su... suki da."
But before Naoko could say anything else, Jun had suddenly ripped the phone from his hands. The dark haired vocalist said a few words, then just abruptly hung up.
"Jun, what are you doing?" Naoko started to protest, moving to stand up. "Sai was..." but the blond shrank back against the wall as Hayato moved so close.
Jun wanted him to listen... and the pianist felt his spirit fall. Something was wrong... and... well... he really didn't want to know WHAT Jun was going to say to him...
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Posted: Thu Jun 23, 2011 12:28 pm
I can no longer return to those days free of bloodshed
These deep scars rooted within me will not disappear...
Naoko looked so small and frightened now, huddled into the corner as he was. It reminded him of those days...of the closet, and... Jun quelled the lustful thoughts that passed though his mind, but the hunger had already flashed across his features. "Ah..Naoko...gomen nasai...don't be afraid. Come here..." he took a step back and held out his hand, helping the blond to get up and take a seat on the edge of the bed. "I know I seem strange...but there's something you have to do for me, kitten. It isn't a request, it's a necessity. When Shou returns, you have to get him to go over to Ohayou studios. All of you, Ryuukaze included. This isn't something that can be negotiated. He has to sign on with them, as do you. It's for your own good. Ok?" He tried to say it as kindly and pleasantly as he could, but even a baby could tell there was something behind all this that was far more frightening than anyone would care to face... Hide it, Hide it
Hide me...
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Posted: Thu Jun 23, 2011 2:50 pm
He accepted that hand, for no other reason than that the Jun he had seen lately... was different than Hayato.
Very different.
From where the blond stood, Jun was being perfectly nice. As far from inappropriate as one could get.
He was... the friend that Naoko had wished he could be.
Sitting on the edge of the bed, Naoko's amber gaze opened just a bit wider. "Ryu and I, we... we've been talking about it... we... we want out of SMASH but... I just don't know how to convince Shou. Sai we could just ask and he'd do it but Shou..." the blond shook his head. "Shou won't do it, Jun-kun. Not without a good reason. Plus, he won't be the headliner anymore if he does it. He'll have to compete with Narcissus and that... that could get ugly."
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Posted: Thu Jun 23, 2011 2:52 pm
"Exactly!" Akihiko replied, shaking his head slightly. "Frozen tv dinners my a**. The man's probably been living off canned goods near their expiration date from that ship's hold if I had my guess. He needs fresh foods. Fruits and vegetables. It's a wonder he doesn't have scurvy."
Now that Narcissus was back to his normal self, he really wanted to eat things thankfully. He wanted to cook again, which was something he hadn't done in a while for a multitude of reasons.
It would be great to see Izzy again. Everything could go back to the way things were just before the benefit dinner.
Akihiko smirked, "Yeah... I'd better go pack. Yuuji will probably have the jet ready within the next hour and I want to get to LA as quickly as possible."
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Posted: Thu Jun 23, 2011 3:47 pm
I can no longer return to those days free of bloodshed
These deep scars rooted within me will not disappear...
Jun's eyes widened slightly. They had already been discussing this as an option...which only made him worry that things were worse than they seemed, even. "Well, do your best, then. Hell...try to talk Sai into posing as Shou and signing the papers. Once it's done, it's done. And I'll...I'll give Shou plenty of reason to want to leave SMASH. I have to now...so...forgive me for however angry he might get, ok, kitten?" Pulling the pianist close, Jun just sat there for a moment, holding his little love tight. The thought crossed his mind of how wonderful it would be if he could have both brothers as his own. How very idyllic...but impossible, unless he decided to hurt them both. The way things stood, he had to settle for having neither. "I think Shou and Narcissus will get along well enough. Their fan bases are separate enough, and the ones in between simply eat up the idea of the two of them working together. In the end...it would be beneficial. I'd probably be whipped into picking up the headlining position with SMASH...but whatever. As long as Izo doesn't ever catch wind of any of this talk. Then we're all screwed. Especially Shou. Oh...and...just for the record...if a man named You ever comes around, for any reason, don't talk to him. If you do anything...just get the hell away from him as quickly as you can. Don't be afraid, though, Naoko. I'll...do my best to make sure everything will be alright." As much as he hated to admit it, he was afraid. Nervous, scared, hurt...and he had a terrible feeling of loss building and building inside him. Fact was...he knew he would snap again....do something wretched again...someday...to somebody...but he wouldn't do it to Naoko, or to Shou. He had made promises, and, as close as he had come, he couldn't bring himself to break them. "I love you so much...Naoko..." the whisper fell from his lips as soft as a spring morning dew. It might be one of the last chances he had to say it to the pianist. He may as well be honest in these precious, fleeting moments. The calm before the storm. Hide it, Hide it
Hide me...
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