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((It happened where I've worked for the past 5 years and the person wasn't new... although granted I didn't really know them and at a glance ((saying this is like Ed accidently saying he's short)) admitedly... with my physical build/body type I can pass as a girl... but, but it's not fair. Though it's not as bad as it used to be. If I wore loose fitting clothes some people really thought I was a girl... even after getting an up close look at me. I had to say something for them to recognize me as a guy... when I asked one of those people that made the mistake about it they said I looked like a girl, but moved like a guy so they couldn't really tell either way until I said something... this ambiguity isn't cool. not one bit. I does not want these looks. it's a curse to be this kind of good looking... maybe it just bothers me so much because on some deep level, thoughts and feelings that I wish I didn't have are brought to the surface and my confidence in who I am falters as these thoughts and feelings come to me that I keep rejecting. Am I rejecting my true self or something that was unneccesary to being with? This may only prove one thing in the end: I have way to much free time if I let something small like this eat away at me. whee ))

*frowns* Naqualla'in... this has been quite difficult on him. He often does not know when he is dreaming and when he is awake, and even at times reacted as if the events in his dream were real. When it first started, he had shown such an anger toward me... it... it was quite frightening really. Although... another time was quite the opposite... *looks off to the side with a boyish smile, rubbing his neck where Tes left a hickey*

really???
so he actually does find them to be quite real?
And they are reoccurring successfully???
*finds she's saying too much already*
Oh! Look at the time - looks like I'm over due wink
do not fear Vixtul love - I assure you he is in good hands....
*giggles and vanishes away*

((flip pounces spirit glomps Icy *It is so perfect for us! tata for now loves!))

*From across the street from the bar Razz sits in waiting in the dark ready for any thing to happen. Opening a crack is his hiding place he takes a better look at his surroundings.* Psy told me I need to watch this place but it doesn't look like any thing is happening. Well I guess I'll wait a little longer then I have things of my own to do. *Razz hunkers back down in the shadows. Disappearing into the dark.*

Procrastinating as much as possible, she spends the day in her quarters, coming up with other things to do other than go meet Kaoru. She had even rearranged her cabinets in the kitchen and organized her DVD collection. Sitting on the couch, she realizes that she has actually ran out of things to do, and really had nothing more to keep her there.

Might as well go get this over with and find out what the hell he's REALLY doing here. Grabbing her purse, she heads out the back door to her car and heads to the hotel.

After a long soak, she gets out of the tub, dries off and then crawls in bed, not wanting to think about anything until the next day. Relaxed somewhat from the bath, she falls asleep soon after her head hits the pillow.

*wakes up and feel nice and refreshed, dresses and does a little spin in front of the mirror giggling a bit. She then straightens her face and heads up for a morning coffee*